blog has stagnanted. photos of recent events have been posted on facebook. many thoughts left as is and unrecorded. going with the flow. nothing presumptuous. nothing cynical.
results are out. got a Credit and a High Distinction. Now just awaiting graduation..
sometimes i believe in ppl's excuses too much. believing that they are genuinely busy when being turned down. i've always believed that they're my friends. they wouldnt hurt me this way.
if u r not interested. then dun tell me next time u will n then next time i asked i get another next time. it's hurtful disappointment. this is naivety i guess.. perhaps giving up on ppl will douse the fire of enthusiasm more and will thus avoid becoming a donkey with a carrot held in front all the time..
the situation simply points to the lack of desire and truth that i didnt wanna accept.
we're just not worth u coming out of ur home.
it's looking increasingly like a bday without everyone this yr.. nobody's doing anything nor remembering anything. it's just different here.
holidays are here.. rushed finish my animation. i feel the sound design was kinda crappish but i kinda ran short of time so all in all, i hv to be satisfied with my effort.
animation by one person is kinda nuts.. all the work.. story writing, storyboarding, character design, modelling, rigging, texturing, animating, lighting, then compositing then sound design.. all by one person in less than a year. just compare that to pixar who does an animated featured film in 4 years with hundreds of ppl each oni doing their share.
for whose who dont understand the work behind animation, 25 still images makes one second of the animation. thus a 3min 30second animation like mine is like (3.5mins x 60 secs/min x 25 frames = 5250 frames).
This is The Shrine of Remembrance. We happen to walk by it as I led a couple of map-idiot designers from Chapel Street back to the City. Thus we had some fun taking photos after shopping.
After submission of our last assignment, we had a nice dinner at this nice restaurant. feels good to be with this big family here.. am realli growing to realli love them.. but we're parting soon.. *sigh*
add in lotsa stress, worries and depressions and u hv the life of melvyn.
but i guess everyone is feeling the same.
today i missed someone a lot. but i didnt call or msg that person.
i have not decided whether i wanna look for a job here in melbourne. i wish i could wait till i've been back in singapore for a couple of months before deciding.. but it's not quite possible as i'll hv to plan where to put my stuff if i do wanna return n find work.
3 years ago, before i came to melbourne, i would hv faced the same dilemma with little trouble.
A 21 yr old Melbourne girl, Britt Lapthorne, from RMIT University went backpacking in Croatia and went missing. After 18 days lost, a badly decomposed body was found with hands n legs cut off at a popular bay for fishing.
"I don't want to target anybody but Britt did not jump off a cliff and cut her legs off on the way down and do something else to decompose herself ... and there's no scientific explanation ... I just want to know why."
when do u feel sad? like real sad.. when u nv try hard enuff or when u tried hard ? which is more painful? does the result determine entirely how you feel? so if u tried hard and got a satisfactory result, u feel happy and if u didnt try hard enuff and missed the chance u feel sad?
what abt times when u tried hard n still didnt get what u want? is it more painful than if u didnt try hard n fail? do u feel totally happy when u din try hard n still did well? or do u feel sad that if u had tried harder u would hv scored higher in such an easy test?
i dun like it when i try hard n fail. i hate it when i tried hard n ppl dun think so or dun appreciate it. i hate it when i am prejudged unfairly.
i made another realisation today.. hmmm.. well.. it might just be a possibility which there is no conclusive end to. but heck! it's my blog. i am allowed to blog ponderings and rubbish as i please..
being on a tight production schedule for the last couple of week, i've set alarm on my mobile phone to wake up early n deprive myself of sufficient sleep to finish my animation on time. it's the alarm tone i used for the past 3 yrs. the one which used to bring much joy whenever i wake up hearing it despite wishing to slp on..
now it's not the same anymore. i wake up press it away. n continue to nap on.. n often, during these short naps, i get dreams. and i wake up feeling sad. afraid. or depressed somehow. i noe what everyone will say if i tok to ppl abt this. no.. but i'm not gonna change my tone just yet..
stubborn? maybe.. it's a fine line between determination n stubbornness anyway. perhaps those who see it as foolish stubbornness dont see/feel the reason to the choice. that's all..
or maybe to most,.. determination is when it all works out. n stubbornness is when it doesnt? i personally do not think it should be determined by its outcome though.
CJ has graduated from Monash University. We went to her convocation to take pictures with her. Few months down and it will be our turn.. hmmm... a lot to ponder. but too much struggling too much with our assignments to even think about the future.. i'll just upload the pictures without the usual barrage of text paragraphs while i'm struggle with my animation...
I discovered a few personality/character traits about myself today.
I do not like - to be asked repeatedly the same question which i hv no answer of.. - being treated differently just coz i am weak in something. even if it's like discrimination of the 'good' kind? but nope still dun like it. kinda makes me feel that u r telling me i am inferior. - getting my hopes up then feeling a lack of commitment from others. - getting my internet suspended during my stressful school period.
*ps: will prolly add more as my frustration boils over during this crucial busy school period with the headaches, nightmares, stress and of coz the lack of enjoyment and slp..
After failing to yield a satisfactory result from simpsonizing my face, i was eager to try out FaceYourManga.com (introduced by wh) which caters much better to the asian online community..
The word 'lame' is overrated, overused and so irritating in my opinion. i'm fine with realli lame jokes being branded lame. but when someone declares publicly that EVERYTHING he/she doesn't like is considered lame, i might just get all agitated..
Last Friday, a group of nine of us went to a nice korean bbq to belatedly celebrate Lainey's bdae ytd. all the pictures would be available on my facebook.
I'll just briefly introduce people who were present that night..
Pamela(classmate from China) & Joyce(classmate from Singapore)
Bean (from Singapore =_=|||) & TJ(classmate from Taiwan)
Sam Chan(classmate from HongKong) & Wanghua(classmate from Singapore)
Sam Yang(Classmate born in Singapore, bred in New Zealand and now studies and possibly work in Melbourne) & Elaine Teh(the birthday girl and classmate from KL, Malaysia) & Chui-Jia(born in Malaysia, bred in New Zealand, Graduated in Australia and going back to Malaysia soon)
The Birthday girl and cake.. hmmm.. usually they come together.. but nope she wasn't caked..
Lainey wanted to get drunk so we ended up staying over at Sam's place drinking Jack Daniel's mix with Coke while trading ghostly stories and encounters. The following day was a dazey day of rotating between watching movies, munching, playing games and more napping..
it has been school work and facebook all the way... just suffer and escape, suffer and escape.. only there is no escape..
*ps: my other blog has been updated. (coz i've been knocking heads again walls that's why.. did some 3D modeling work. so much to do.. some much so much MORE to come..)
(Click thumbnails to view larger versions of the character spins.)
Tired teens at risk of breaking their hearts Jill Stark August 19, 2008
Sleep-deprived teenagers are at greater risk of high blood pressure and heart attacks - and their mobile phones, computer games and iPods could be to blame, research suggests.
A study of teens aged 13 to 16 found those who slept less than 6½ hours a night were up to three times more likely to have elevated blood pressure.
hmmmm... something tells me i fall fittingly into that ominous group of ppl.. i slp on average 5 hrs a day.. hmmmmm....
stress... everyone is.. everyone in school is i guess.. today's stress reliever aka time waster is the simpsons website where u can simpsonize urself.. they hv lots more options to choose from now.. but i still din quite manage to realli make one that remind me of me.. i think others see me more often than i see myself so i invite u to simpsonise me if u wanna waste some time..
+ her to be happy
+ inner bliss
+ to unite with you again.
+ be able to bring joy to ppl i love.. again..
+ graduate with a DI average grade. (difficult..)
+ nv to meet BenPar ever again after graduation.
+ get a decent job.
+ good gradesHD & DI pls..
+ More External HDDs( not enuff again.. =( )
+ Newcastle to do well
- Call me bean
- First naked on 11/11/1982
- Bleeds
black & white
- Has dad & sista, michelle. No more mum but an auntie. =p
- Has an IQ of 152
- Can you afford me? I'm worth exactly: $1,448,020
- Am lazy. (applies to even eating!)
- Don't expect me to read Chinese
- Sees the glass half full
- Loyal & faithful
- Loves to shop
- photograFREAK
- Loves potatoes (meshed, whipped, fried, etc)
- Picky with greenies..
- Studied EI in NYP
- Enlisted to Gryphon Coy (BMTC)
- Signal Trained in S.I.
- Posted to 1st Guards
- Served my NS as Bn S2 Signaller
- ORDed on X'mas eve'05
- interested in multimedia.
- a recent deviant
- studying BA(AIM) in RMIT. Melbourne. Aussie.
-
Part Timeworking adult,
Full Time slacker.
- SAFpays me no more.. =(
- Singing lifts my spirits tremendously
blog has stagnanted. photos of recent events have been posted on facebook. many thoughts left as is and unrecorded. going with the flow. nothing presumptuous. nothing cynical.
results are out. got a Credit and a High Distinction. Now just awaiting graduation..
sometimes i believe in ppl's excuses too much. believing that they are genuinely busy when being turned down. i've always believed that they're my friends. they wouldnt hurt me this way.
if u r not interested. then dun tell me next time u will n then next time i asked i get another next time. it's hurtful disappointment. this is naivety i guess.. perhaps giving up on ppl will douse the fire of enthusiasm more and will thus avoid becoming a donkey with a carrot held in front all the time..
the situation simply points to the lack of desire and truth that i didnt wanna accept.
we're just not worth u coming out of ur home.
it's looking increasingly like a bday without everyone this yr.. nobody's doing anything nor remembering anything. it's just different here.
holidays are here.. rushed finish my animation. i feel the sound design was kinda crappish but i kinda ran short of time so all in all, i hv to be satisfied with my effort.
animation by one person is kinda nuts.. all the work.. story writing, storyboarding, character design, modelling, rigging, texturing, animating, lighting, then compositing then sound design.. all by one person in less than a year. just compare that to pixar who does an animated featured film in 4 years with hundreds of ppl each oni doing their share.
for whose who dont understand the work behind animation, 25 still images makes one second of the animation. thus a 3min 30second animation like mine is like (3.5mins x 60 secs/min x 25 frames = 5250 frames).
This is The Shrine of Remembrance. We happen to walk by it as I led a couple of map-idiot designers from Chapel Street back to the City. Thus we had some fun taking photos after shopping.
After submission of our last assignment, we had a nice dinner at this nice restaurant. feels good to be with this big family here.. am realli growing to realli love them.. but we're parting soon.. *sigh*
add in lotsa stress, worries and depressions and u hv the life of melvyn.
but i guess everyone is feeling the same.
today i missed someone a lot. but i didnt call or msg that person.
i have not decided whether i wanna look for a job here in melbourne. i wish i could wait till i've been back in singapore for a couple of months before deciding.. but it's not quite possible as i'll hv to plan where to put my stuff if i do wanna return n find work.
3 years ago, before i came to melbourne, i would hv faced the same dilemma with little trouble.
A 21 yr old Melbourne girl, Britt Lapthorne, from RMIT University went backpacking in Croatia and went missing. After 18 days lost, a badly decomposed body was found with hands n legs cut off at a popular bay for fishing.
"I don't want to target anybody but Britt did not jump off a cliff and cut her legs off on the way down and do something else to decompose herself ... and there's no scientific explanation ... I just want to know why."
when do u feel sad? like real sad.. when u nv try hard enuff or when u tried hard ? which is more painful? does the result determine entirely how you feel? so if u tried hard and got a satisfactory result, u feel happy and if u didnt try hard enuff and missed the chance u feel sad?
what abt times when u tried hard n still didnt get what u want? is it more painful than if u didnt try hard n fail? do u feel totally happy when u din try hard n still did well? or do u feel sad that if u had tried harder u would hv scored higher in such an easy test?
i dun like it when i try hard n fail. i hate it when i tried hard n ppl dun think so or dun appreciate it. i hate it when i am prejudged unfairly.
i made another realisation today.. hmmm.. well.. it might just be a possibility which there is no conclusive end to. but heck! it's my blog. i am allowed to blog ponderings and rubbish as i please..
being on a tight production schedule for the last couple of week, i've set alarm on my mobile phone to wake up early n deprive myself of sufficient sleep to finish my animation on time. it's the alarm tone i used for the past 3 yrs. the one which used to bring much joy whenever i wake up hearing it despite wishing to slp on..
now it's not the same anymore. i wake up press it away. n continue to nap on.. n often, during these short naps, i get dreams. and i wake up feeling sad. afraid. or depressed somehow. i noe what everyone will say if i tok to ppl abt this. no.. but i'm not gonna change my tone just yet..
stubborn? maybe.. it's a fine line between determination n stubbornness anyway. perhaps those who see it as foolish stubbornness dont see/feel the reason to the choice. that's all..
or maybe to most,.. determination is when it all works out. n stubbornness is when it doesnt? i personally do not think it should be determined by its outcome though.
CJ has graduated from Monash University. We went to her convocation to take pictures with her. Few months down and it will be our turn.. hmmm... a lot to ponder. but too much struggling too much with our assignments to even think about the future.. i'll just upload the pictures without the usual barrage of text paragraphs while i'm struggle with my animation...
I discovered a few personality/character traits about myself today.
I do not like - to be asked repeatedly the same question which i hv no answer of.. - being treated differently just coz i am weak in something. even if it's like discrimination of the 'good' kind? but nope still dun like it. kinda makes me feel that u r telling me i am inferior. - getting my hopes up then feeling a lack of commitment from others. - getting my internet suspended during my stressful school period.
*ps: will prolly add more as my frustration boils over during this crucial busy school period with the headaches, nightmares, stress and of coz the lack of enjoyment and slp..
After failing to yield a satisfactory result from simpsonizing my face, i was eager to try out FaceYourManga.com (introduced by wh) which caters much better to the asian online community..
The word 'lame' is overrated, overused and so irritating in my opinion. i'm fine with realli lame jokes being branded lame. but when someone declares publicly that EVERYTHING he/she doesn't like is considered lame, i might just get all agitated..
Last Friday, a group of nine of us went to a nice korean bbq to belatedly celebrate Lainey's bdae ytd. all the pictures would be available on my facebook.
I'll just briefly introduce people who were present that night..
Pamela(classmate from China) & Joyce(classmate from Singapore)
Bean (from Singapore =_=|||) & TJ(classmate from Taiwan)
Sam Chan(classmate from HongKong) & Wanghua(classmate from Singapore)
Sam Yang(Classmate born in Singapore, bred in New Zealand and now studies and possibly work in Melbourne) & Elaine Teh(the birthday girl and classmate from KL, Malaysia) & Chui-Jia(born in Malaysia, bred in New Zealand, Graduated in Australia and going back to Malaysia soon)
The Birthday girl and cake.. hmmm.. usually they come together.. but nope she wasn't caked..
Lainey wanted to get drunk so we ended up staying over at Sam's place drinking Jack Daniel's mix with Coke while trading ghostly stories and encounters. The following day was a dazey day of rotating between watching movies, munching, playing games and more napping..
it has been school work and facebook all the way... just suffer and escape, suffer and escape.. only there is no escape..
*ps: my other blog has been updated. (coz i've been knocking heads again walls that's why.. did some 3D modeling work. so much to do.. some much so much MORE to come..)
(Click thumbnails to view larger versions of the character spins.)
Tired teens at risk of breaking their hearts Jill Stark August 19, 2008
Sleep-deprived teenagers are at greater risk of high blood pressure and heart attacks - and their mobile phones, computer games and iPods could be to blame, research suggests.
A study of teens aged 13 to 16 found those who slept less than 6½ hours a night were up to three times more likely to have elevated blood pressure.
hmmmm... something tells me i fall fittingly into that ominous group of ppl.. i slp on average 5 hrs a day.. hmmmmm....
stress... everyone is.. everyone in school is i guess.. today's stress reliever aka time waster is the simpsons website where u can simpsonize urself.. they hv lots more options to choose from now.. but i still din quite manage to realli make one that remind me of me.. i think others see me more often than i see myself so i invite u to simpsonise me if u wanna waste some time..
(Click thumbnails to view larger versions of the character spins.)