Busy with school.. very very busy.. probably only doing school work or slp n eat for the next week or so.. one habbit i've since picked up is listening in on utube interviews.. this whole series of Inside the Actors Studio on youtube..
Some of these actors have such smart answers.. and some are just inspiring.. listen in some time.. especially the tom hanks ones.. My fav actor.. one of my fav movies.. forest gump..
I thought i'd answer the famous ten questions asked on the show..
- What is your favorite word?
Well Done. (i noe it's two words.. but we left maths years ago in school, didn't we?)
- What is your least favorite word?
Sorry
- What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
Creativity & innovation.
- What turns you off creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
Petulance negative stubbornness.
- What sound or noise do you love?
Laughter of my friends & loved ones.
- What sound or noise do you hate?
The sound of silence from my friends & loved ones.. (it means they're down..)
- What is your favorite curse word?
shit.
- What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
Soccer player.
- What profession would you not like to do?
I once had a thought that if i was paid a shitload of money for just sitting on a chair in an empty white room told to do nothing and am not allowed to move or fall asleep or do anything other than sitting there and staring blankly ahead at the white walls, I would still reject the offer straight out of hand.
- If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
Hey hey! Newcastle rules.. Give me a five..!
Labels: Life, melbourne, school, Stress
Bean blubbered at [21:45]
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i think that i've been blocked.. i think it's unnecessary and it just shows a complete lack of trust and faith in everything. it saddens me tremendously and always takes a lot out of me despite me being in real need to buck up in school and stop thinking negative thoughts..
it all started with one thing in mind.. "to bring life and water to a lonely barren land.." and after putting in everything i could.. "water and life flowed through the land for a while.." but i had to leave the place. "and the water dried up again.."
:(
if it's meant to be, it'll be waiting right there at the finishing line.. have faith..Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [01:07]
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i dun want her to feel i am pestering her. i tot that when i am in need of help i could depend on a fren. guess i am less than a fren. i am sorry and sad to be treated this way but it's the way it is and there's nothing i can do further to make it better so i guess leaving it as it is would be the only way there is to go..
i am ur fren. always willing to be there for u. without expectations in return.Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [00:18]
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English lesson of the day..
Melancholia in contemporary usage, is a mood disorder of non-specific depression, characterized by low levels of enthusiasm and eagerness for activity. In a modern context, "melancholy" applies only to the mental or emotional symptoms of depression or despondency.Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [16:41]
Once upon a time in India, there was a little boy named Naeb. He was not from a well-to-do family and was still studying without any form of stable income. Everyday he had to walk a long distance to school barefooted but he never once grumbled to his windower mother.
The sharp stones on the way hurt his sole everyday. He would try to concentrate on taking in the beautiful scenery and observing interesting people and happenings in his journey and in a way he forgets the pain temporarily.
One day, along his journey to school, a new toy shop started business. On the shop window were plenty of interesting toys. Most kids his age would love the more popular toys like dinosaurs and robots or for girls, dolls. However, Naeb had taken an fondness for a second hand broken string puppet.
It was almost totally functional except that one limb of the puppet was damaged beyond repair. Having learnt some wood crafting in school, he got a part time job helping out at the wood craft's workshop to earn some extra pocket money. In his spare time, he would work on wood-crafting a new limb for the damaged toy puppet he liked.
A few months passed and he has finally earned enough to buy the broken toy at the toy shop. He was about to go out when his mother fell ill and fainted in the kitchen. He got neighbors to help him get his mother to the hospital. All his hard-earned money for buying the toy went into paying the hospital fees. He was both happy that his money had helped his mother yet sad that it would mean he wouldn't be able to get the toy for himself.
As he walked home, he thought of visiting the toy shop to have another look at the toy. Even if he couldn't afford it, looking at it might make him happier. When he reached the shop window, he peered in and saw that the broken toy puppet is not where it was. He was shock. Then a customer walks out from the toy shop with the broken toy puppet in hand.
His heart shattered to a million pieces at that moment as he fell to his knees.Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [13:36]
this + this + this = that ??
haiz.. no confidence. saying is definitely easier than doing.. haiz.. In vaguelogy terms, i shall try explain..
You've planned to do this n this n this. so that u can do that. and of course to achieve this, this & this is a long hard journey. note that the initial motivation is to achieve that.
A nights' sleep later, you realised that there is a substantial possibility that before you can achieve all 3 this, that might not be possible anymore. it's what i think is the time factor..
Thus, i hv lost confidence and the extra moltivation again.. what's the point of working so hard to achieve this, this & this and then still not achieve that?
god.. i am so dead.Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [11:19]
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i dun like rollercoaster rides.. i dun like to feel frighten and insecure.. but life is one big gi-normous rollercoaster ride..
i've just gone a full circle and reaffirmed what i've always believed and wanted to believe.. there were doubts from everyone and everywhere.. but i'm realli glad i havent '看错人'..
i still feel the same. i still long for a fairytale ending.. no matter how long i hv to wait..
*ps: thanks for all the concern shown from RF, SJ, ET, SY & WH.Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [23:13]
in love, nothing equates. i've broken me heart once again. damn stupid blog i have.. empty for the most part without updates and when i write it's the same sad soapy sappy shit all over again. fuck myself.
one side of the bean brain says:
u cannot force love.
if u love the person u love, wish her happiness..
be happy for her even if she is with another..
if u love her, u will eventually forgive her.
Others say:
RF: dun let others pity u. especially NOT the one who left u.
WH: some girls are blind de. it doesnt mean u're thrash.
SY: time to let go.
i want to be loved.. i dun wanna love another girl who love my pamper but dun love me.. love is cruel. even when u give ur best effort. it doesn't necessarily mean that the one receiving the love is gonna love u back the same. what i din expect is to be thrashed in return. please god.. time to show why u r god... again..Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [19:19]
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'you're the one who i feel totally comfortable with without any makeup and in my lousiest set of clothes..'
- anonymous
they say to treasure the one that brings the best out of you..
they say to never take anything or anyone for granted..
they say to choose the one who you like to be beside you when u're down in the dumps..
but what happens when it aint true?Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [21:41]
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