Main Entry: stin·gy Pronunciation: \ˈstin-jē\ Function: adjective
- not generous or liberal : sparing or scant in using, giving, or spending.
HOWEVER, i feel that...
"A poor person who does not spend on necessary items does not make her a stingy person.
She is only doing what she knows she can do to survive.."
I used to be in the class 5A. The teachers gave each class initial a cheesy meaningful word. I reckon mine was pretty special. Agape. it was my first time in contact of this word at that time so it intrigued me to find out more about the word. So here I'll share one more definition to this post..
Agape
pronounced "ah-GAH'-pay".
It is a Greek word. Found first in the biblical New Testament, agape expresses the spiritual, not physical, love of God for his people.
It is an unconditional love and concern for others.
Agape is a love that accepts everyone for who they are.
This is the same love that God expressed for us through the death of Jesus Christ, His Son (1 John 4:9,10). It is a selfless love. Everyone has capacity for agape love.
i wish/pray for patience, contentment & dedication to achieving agape..
*ps: i'm not christian/catholic but i do feel there's much to learn from their "stories"..
it's hard.. it's so hard.. waking up, feeling piled beneath lotsa work. set the mind to do work. not to think too much. by the time it reaches the night.. the same old problem arises.. it's like i became a werewolf.. oni diff is werewolves bite n not shed tears in bed..
burying myself in work is the temporary relief.. be4 i touch my wounds again.. i noe it's my choice. my own foolish choice to hold on. to attempt loving with expecting anything in return..
y do i choose to do that to myself..? coz i believe it's not over.. nothing seriously wrong happened.. i'd like to think even if i did something wrong.. i merited a second chance.. i've not fall so deeply be4..
it hurts real bad.. every night i wish her happiness.. and reaffirmed what i am doing is to honour what she would want. it hurts hving to live with it. it hurts to wanna call but cant. to wanna msg but hv to decide not to. it hurts to msg, not get a reply.. not realli putting much hopes on a reply either..
it hurts to not know what she is thinking.. it hurts to not noe what to address her.. i cant bring myself to address her by name anymore.. it hurts that love songs stroke so many heartstrings with their lyrics..
but most of all, it hurts to feel that we're no longer..
my longest dream ever.. Bizarre one again.. but so flowing..
this is oni 2 thirds..
Dream of 9th April 2008
me and tj hanging out outside vistoria state library. i was holding a bunch of vcds/dvds. chitchatting after school. seems to be waiting for some guys.
while chatting with tj, i accidentally drop some cds. police woman accuse me of littering threathens to report me i state my reasoning that i had just dropped n alredi picked it up but she was more aggravated and got angry. she proceed to write in her book.
she ask a bunch of police officer to give chase. me and tj got caught. knocked unconcious. brought to a police station.
woke up at the station. the policewoman is not around. bunch of police guys luffing and chitchatting. one of them is a fren(chenghan). he's a policeman. ask him to help me. he got the rest of the policeman to help me. they hid us somewhere. then when the policewoman come back, they told her that we had alredi been processed. she scolded them for processing me without her ard.
policewoman kinda forgives them says she is going out to get a cuppa tea. chenghan got me n tj out of the closet/place where we hiding told us to quickly go away.
exploring the place a little. was wondering how to get out of the place. tj got spotted by the policewoman again. she got another bunch of police guys to chase us. we ran as hard as we could.. tj got caught. i kept running.
ran into a chamber/coridor leading to other rooms. it was quite busy, ppl were walking ard.. then suddenly an alarm went off. everyone obediently squat down at both sides of the corridor. the guy squatting next to me told me to keep quiet n squat there. that alarm ring means it's terrorist attack. i tot that it must be the policewoman's ploy to stop everyone in there to catch me easily.
knowing that i will most likely get caught if i stayed, i stood up and carry on walking forward. there i met this guy wearing a mask and holding some sort of a gun. i tot he was there to capture me. so i was defiant when he told me to go back there n squat down.
a bunch of abt 10 guys(chosen by him be4 i came into the picture) were ushered to enter a corridor. i tot that instead of getting caught or going back there to squat, i would run into the corridor with the 10 guys. they must be chosen to be set free.
so, defiant to the guy in mask's order, i ran into the corridor with the airtight door shut closed behind me. he din shoot at me.. so i think he is afterall a police officer trying to catch me alive/without resorting to firearms violence.
then as i was inside the corridor, i suddenly remembered that he was wearing some sort of a mask thing. and the guy in charge of leading this group was oso wearing a mask. it was then i realised that they ARE terrorists. and this ten chosen ones must be sent to die.. as a sign to send shock waves thruout the nation.
omg! what hv i done. i think i have unexpectedly chosen to die with the 10 unlucky ones.. no wonder he din shoot at me.. i ran as hard as i could.. running n opening doors.. trying so hard to find another alternative exit. windows/bathroom windows.. anything...
after many mindless running and opening of doors, i finally escaped... crawling thru a tunnel.. seeing the light.. but it's not safe yet..
i dreamt so much recently.. i noe myself.. i oni dream when my heart is not at ease... kinda addicted to MLTR songs.. belting away "That's why you go away", "25 minutes", "paint my love" on youtube... even in class while animating 3d models..
it's times like these where u understand what ur heart wants.. yet find it so hard to accept it.. most times u choose to walk away when u know they r prolly right.. sometimes u know you're right.. but yet u still walk away coz u noe that's how they'll be happiest.. and that is what u want for them deep down..
i asked for contentment in my new yr resolution. all i want was the same.. but it was not to be.. a part of me is torn.. leaving me wounded everynight.. temporarily reprieved during the day and all so hurting at night.. hmmm,.. love songs are so carefully worded.. they just work in most cases...
Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes I don't wanna say goodbye to you Love is one big illusion I should try to forget but there is something left in my head
You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop I'm the one who's feeling lost right now Now you want me to forget every little thing you said but there is something left in my head
Chorus: I won't forget the way you're kissing The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long But I'm not the man your heart is missing That's why you go away I know
You were never satisfied no matter how I tried Now you wanna say goodbye to me Love is one big illusion I should try to forget but there is something left in my head
Chorus: I won't forget the way you're kissing The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long But I'm not the man your heart is missing That's why you go away I know
Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere Don't know which way to go There ain't so much to say now between us There ain't so much for you There ain't so much for me anymore
Chorus I won't forget the way you're kissing The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long But I'm not the man your heart is missing That's why you go away I know
+ her to be happy
+ inner bliss
+ to unite with you again.
+ be able to bring joy to ppl i love.. again..
+ graduate with a DI average grade. (difficult..)
+ nv to meet BenPar ever again after graduation.
+ get a decent job.
+ good gradesHD & DI pls..
+ More External HDDs( not enuff again.. =( )
+ Newcastle to do well
- Call me bean
- First naked on 11/11/1982
- Bleeds
black & white
- Has dad & sista, michelle. No more mum but an auntie. =p
- Has an IQ of 152
- Can you afford me? I'm worth exactly: $1,448,020
- Am lazy. (applies to even eating!)
- Don't expect me to read Chinese
- Sees the glass half full
- Loyal & faithful
- Loves to shop
- photograFREAK
- Loves potatoes (meshed, whipped, fried, etc)
- Picky with greenies..
- Studied EI in NYP
- Enlisted to Gryphon Coy (BMTC)
- Signal Trained in S.I.
- Posted to 1st Guards
- Served my NS as Bn S2 Signaller
- ORDed on X'mas eve'05
- interested in multimedia.
- a recent deviant
- studying BA(AIM) in RMIT. Melbourne. Aussie.
-
Part Timeworking adult,
Full Time slacker.
- SAFpays me no more.. =(
- Singing lifts my spirits tremendously
Main Entry: stin·gy Pronunciation: \ˈstin-jē\ Function: adjective
- not generous or liberal : sparing or scant in using, giving, or spending.
HOWEVER, i feel that...
"A poor person who does not spend on necessary items does not make her a stingy person.
She is only doing what she knows she can do to survive.."
I used to be in the class 5A. The teachers gave each class initial a cheesy meaningful word. I reckon mine was pretty special. Agape. it was my first time in contact of this word at that time so it intrigued me to find out more about the word. So here I'll share one more definition to this post..
Agape
pronounced "ah-GAH'-pay".
It is a Greek word. Found first in the biblical New Testament, agape expresses the spiritual, not physical, love of God for his people.
It is an unconditional love and concern for others.
Agape is a love that accepts everyone for who they are.
This is the same love that God expressed for us through the death of Jesus Christ, His Son (1 John 4:9,10). It is a selfless love. Everyone has capacity for agape love.
i wish/pray for patience, contentment & dedication to achieving agape..
*ps: i'm not christian/catholic but i do feel there's much to learn from their "stories"..
it's hard.. it's so hard.. waking up, feeling piled beneath lotsa work. set the mind to do work. not to think too much. by the time it reaches the night.. the same old problem arises.. it's like i became a werewolf.. oni diff is werewolves bite n not shed tears in bed..
burying myself in work is the temporary relief.. be4 i touch my wounds again.. i noe it's my choice. my own foolish choice to hold on. to attempt loving with expecting anything in return..
y do i choose to do that to myself..? coz i believe it's not over.. nothing seriously wrong happened.. i'd like to think even if i did something wrong.. i merited a second chance.. i've not fall so deeply be4..
it hurts real bad.. every night i wish her happiness.. and reaffirmed what i am doing is to honour what she would want. it hurts hving to live with it. it hurts to wanna call but cant. to wanna msg but hv to decide not to. it hurts to msg, not get a reply.. not realli putting much hopes on a reply either..
it hurts to not know what she is thinking.. it hurts to not noe what to address her.. i cant bring myself to address her by name anymore.. it hurts that love songs stroke so many heartstrings with their lyrics..
but most of all, it hurts to feel that we're no longer..
my longest dream ever.. Bizarre one again.. but so flowing..
this is oni 2 thirds..
Dream of 9th April 2008
me and tj hanging out outside vistoria state library. i was holding a bunch of vcds/dvds. chitchatting after school. seems to be waiting for some guys.
while chatting with tj, i accidentally drop some cds. police woman accuse me of littering threathens to report me i state my reasoning that i had just dropped n alredi picked it up but she was more aggravated and got angry. she proceed to write in her book.
she ask a bunch of police officer to give chase. me and tj got caught. knocked unconcious. brought to a police station.
woke up at the station. the policewoman is not around. bunch of police guys luffing and chitchatting. one of them is a fren(chenghan). he's a policeman. ask him to help me. he got the rest of the policeman to help me. they hid us somewhere. then when the policewoman come back, they told her that we had alredi been processed. she scolded them for processing me without her ard.
policewoman kinda forgives them says she is going out to get a cuppa tea. chenghan got me n tj out of the closet/place where we hiding told us to quickly go away.
exploring the place a little. was wondering how to get out of the place. tj got spotted by the policewoman again. she got another bunch of police guys to chase us. we ran as hard as we could.. tj got caught. i kept running.
ran into a chamber/coridor leading to other rooms. it was quite busy, ppl were walking ard.. then suddenly an alarm went off. everyone obediently squat down at both sides of the corridor. the guy squatting next to me told me to keep quiet n squat there. that alarm ring means it's terrorist attack. i tot that it must be the policewoman's ploy to stop everyone in there to catch me easily.
knowing that i will most likely get caught if i stayed, i stood up and carry on walking forward. there i met this guy wearing a mask and holding some sort of a gun. i tot he was there to capture me. so i was defiant when he told me to go back there n squat down.
a bunch of abt 10 guys(chosen by him be4 i came into the picture) were ushered to enter a corridor. i tot that instead of getting caught or going back there to squat, i would run into the corridor with the 10 guys. they must be chosen to be set free.
so, defiant to the guy in mask's order, i ran into the corridor with the airtight door shut closed behind me. he din shoot at me.. so i think he is afterall a police officer trying to catch me alive/without resorting to firearms violence.
then as i was inside the corridor, i suddenly remembered that he was wearing some sort of a mask thing. and the guy in charge of leading this group was oso wearing a mask. it was then i realised that they ARE terrorists. and this ten chosen ones must be sent to die.. as a sign to send shock waves thruout the nation.
omg! what hv i done. i think i have unexpectedly chosen to die with the 10 unlucky ones.. no wonder he din shoot at me.. i ran as hard as i could.. running n opening doors.. trying so hard to find another alternative exit. windows/bathroom windows.. anything...
after many mindless running and opening of doors, i finally escaped... crawling thru a tunnel.. seeing the light.. but it's not safe yet..
i dreamt so much recently.. i noe myself.. i oni dream when my heart is not at ease... kinda addicted to MLTR songs.. belting away "That's why you go away", "25 minutes", "paint my love" on youtube... even in class while animating 3d models..
it's times like these where u understand what ur heart wants.. yet find it so hard to accept it.. most times u choose to walk away when u know they r prolly right.. sometimes u know you're right.. but yet u still walk away coz u noe that's how they'll be happiest.. and that is what u want for them deep down..
i asked for contentment in my new yr resolution. all i want was the same.. but it was not to be.. a part of me is torn.. leaving me wounded everynight.. temporarily reprieved during the day and all so hurting at night.. hmmm,.. love songs are so carefully worded.. they just work in most cases...
Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes I don't wanna say goodbye to you Love is one big illusion I should try to forget but there is something left in my head
You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop I'm the one who's feeling lost right now Now you want me to forget every little thing you said but there is something left in my head
Chorus: I won't forget the way you're kissing The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long But I'm not the man your heart is missing That's why you go away I know
You were never satisfied no matter how I tried Now you wanna say goodbye to me Love is one big illusion I should try to forget but there is something left in my head
Chorus: I won't forget the way you're kissing The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long But I'm not the man your heart is missing That's why you go away I know
Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere Don't know which way to go There ain't so much to say now between us There ain't so much for you There ain't so much for me anymore
Chorus I won't forget the way you're kissing The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long But I'm not the man your heart is missing That's why you go away I know
