Monday, September 25, 2006

just read the news report(below) about Dario Silva whom i've watched and seen him play on many occasions. i can't help but feel sad.. coz i could truly connect and feel what he is likely to feel once he recovers from coma. and i believe i would probably be hv felt it a lot less than he would feel it.

i thought about it myself before.. when the time comes when i can't play every week or often enough to satisfy my love for soccer, i will be sad. on the pitch every footballer of different age is reborn.. rejuvenated to be as young as a small kid. devoid of many shackles of life.. without a worry other than to play well and enjoy urselves.

i consoled myself that when i get old and can't play no soccer no more, i could at least kick around with my kid.. n i just imagined Dario waking up from coma seeing his leg gone.. not able to play footy ever again.. i wish the company i am designing a logo and stationary for is for real. ideolab. clone him a new leg lah.. it's so sad lor..

Silva heartbreak after amputation

Former Uruguay striker Dario Silva has had his right leg amputated following a serious car crash, according to reports in his homeland.

he 33-year-old ex-Malaga man, who played for Portsmouth last season, was driving his car in Montevideo on Sunday but lost control and hit a column of street lights. He was placed in a medically-induced coma.

Doctor Mario Canela, of La Espanola hospital, explained the surgery was "to amputate the leg from the knee down".

He added: "Silva's situation is absolutely not solved with the amputation. We are worried about a possible infection."

Silva played 49 matches for Uruguay, scoring 15 goals, including the 2002 World Cup finals in the Far East.

He was without a club, having left Pompey in February.

*now.. put a football as ur msn pic for a day to commemorate him lah!
Blabbered bean @ 22:07 //

Thursday, September 21, 2006

hmmm... something i thought i'd like to get off my heart..

i left school with the samu and lainey oni at ard 2000h tonight.. we were busy trying to get some design work done..(individual work la..) richard(this rich fren of samu who's his own boss) joined us for dinner at rice bar.. samu kept asking me to go along with them for dinner.. but i've spent my last dollar in my wallet this afternoon during lunch.. haven got to any atm to withdraw yet.. so i kept trying to push the offer away..

when i finally caved in to his persuading,..(i more often than not will cave in.. upon repeated persuasion) i told him i need to go draw some money first.. coz i dun hv any cash on me.. but the nearest atm is kind far away from the place we're hving dinner.. so he said he'll pay for me.. left with not much choice, i agreed.

after dinner, richard paid for my meal.. i didn't noe abt it until much later.. when i've reached home n thanked samu for paying for me via sms.(i'll always not feel comfortable to accept favours nor show gratitude face to face..) then he replied me via sms that richard paid for my meal n is not expecting me to return him the money.

i'd like to say i dun like the idea.. i dunno whether this is being rigid or not.. but i dun realli like accepting favours from ppl.. esp. ppl i dun feel close enuff to.. i guess this was due to an incident some time ago in secondary school.. i was in sec 4.. one of the top 3 students in class.. somehow or rather i was seated next to the other 2 top students.

they were brothers.. taiwanese.. naturally better in chinese language.. well,.. chinese ain't realli my cuppa tea if u noe me well enuff.. there was this chinese exam or test when i was scratching my head trying my best to squeeze out answers. then one of them had alreadi finished the paper n saw that i was struggling to think up the answers to the blanks i skipped earlier.. he offered me the chance to copy the word from his paper. verbally n by actions(he slid his paper over..) i copied..

initially i was happy.. coz i had filled in the few gaps which has been boggling up my mind.. but it'll always remained in me the feeling i felt when we got back our papers.. i din score as high as the taiwanese bros for the chinese paper but i did get a pretty decent score.. shortlived was the joy..

if seeing urself score well was a high leap into the air,.. then the remarks they made soon later while comparing scores was like taking away the ground beneath me suddenly.. remarks like "wah.. this one, this one, this one and that one is i help u one.." pierced thru me like a knife.. deep down inside, i told myself i've left my conscience down.. and i never ever wanna receive help from ppl like these again.. i'd rather not get an A than to receive remarks like those again..

i'd gladly get a b3 via my own hard work/talent/intelligence than to get an a1 then have my sense of achievement taken away from me..

thus far my story explains my unwillingness to receive favours/treats/help from many many ppl.. like when i moved house, i din ask help from my frens in the city even though they did offer help when they noe i was moving out of my apartment.. i rather make several long trips back n forth alone than ask for help. coz i dun wanna feel indebt to them..

i hope my frens can understand my reasons for being stubborn/rigid or whatever u wanna call it.. i will/must return the money to samu no matter what.. i guess this is what u refer to as principles in life - learnt via the hard way..


*jack sparrow loves his black pearl, while bean sparrow loves his white pearl..
Blabbered bean @ 20:35 //

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

hey.. i've decided not to blog anymore abt the evil munchkins sharing the house with me.. i believe in thinking positive and i should set a good example for ppl whom i try to encourage to be positive abt life.. thus no more evil munchkin blog entries.. hiak hiak hiak.. i just thought that life is too short to be hving such ppl taking my memory..

alrite.. let's see how long i can keep this up.. but i shall try to blog something every other day.. on .txt files before uploading the entry as and when possible.. for those who dunno why i dun blog so often anymore,... it's a loong story cut short to.. i dun hv broadband internet connection.

yeah.. i'm just back from class and bathed.. it's now 2047h. why? coz we have live drawing tonite. yeah.. this... late 30s to 40 yr old guy wrapped in a robe joined and was the centre of attention for much of this class. hmmm.. it was my first time drawing with a charcoal but though i din do very well as compared to other talented artists in my class,.. i was pretty much satisfied. i did improved a lot as compared to my days in singapore..

the odd thing abt drawing this nude figure... was that i kept sketching my pictures slanted anti clockwise abt 15 degrees. it's always ends up tilted. maybe i hv a weird tilt in my head.. haha.. or maybe it's my hand.. but my last drawing was okay.. i reckon it's something to do with drawing the head of the model.(my last drawing due to the angle which i drawn from,.. i couldnt see the head.)

hmm i wish i could upload a picture to let all u guys luff at.. but my connection is slow.. i'll go take a pic n try now.. if i can, u guys r lucky.. =)


* london bridge is NOT falling down, NOT falling down, NOT falling down..
  london bridge is NOT falling down, my fair lady..
Blabbered bean @ 19:17 //

Friday, September 08, 2006

awww.. nothing but complains n whinging n whining n pining.. argh.. it's better not to blog.. my speed is up now.. but i bet in less than a week my speeds going down to 64kbps again.. coz in less than 24 hrs of hving high speed we hv clocked up 4gb out of 10gb.. dunno they dl what thing.. it's not fair.. i would prefer to ration my speed for 2-3 wks instead of blowing it all in a night.. but no point i try to save when they are going all out to dl stuff! damn..

housemates invite ppl over to study right outside my room everynight.. sometimes even coming at 3am..!! lack of privacy lah.. damn pissed with them.. they talk so loud.. luff out loud and i even saw them playing cards out there.. veri veri unfortunate me.. :(

i bought my own pot n pan n bowls n plates n dish washing detergent already.. everything put in my room.. coz they dun wash dishes clean one.. everytime be4 i use i must wash for them.. sometimes they dun wash before i need to use the shared utensils n i end up hv to wash for them. selfish n irresponsible n inconsiderate scums..

there they are(below).. avoid at all cost.. increases possibility of heart attack by 500%!!!
Blabbered bean @ 20:00 //