some chat with K in the car on our way to the soccer match today planted this qn mark in my head.. it just set my brain on overtime... pondering n thinking.. this is the conversation.
K: hey melvyn, do u hv a gf in singapore?
me: no... y? (this is so me.. always counter asking.)
K: no lah.. coz i hv this classmate. he's also singaporean. and he is unattached too.
K: i asked him why he is still unattached. and he say he wants to get a degree, a job le then think of girlfren. but i think that is kinda too late.
me(as usual dumb-struck): oh...?
some car in front suddenly jam braked and K jammed too.. and i was spared from further awkward qns/reactions.. but then after some time,...
K: how come u singaporeans studying here all unattached?
me: erm,.. maybe it's army? after 2 yrs in army.. most of us hv little time with gfs and end up breakup or maybe just no time to find one. or maybe if we had gfs, we wouldn't wanna come aussie study already?
(i should hv just said,
"if we had gfs, coming here would mean that wed almost definitely lose them.. coz they'll find some other guys.."
or
"coz in singapore, the girls not interested in u until u assured of career, car, future and uni is one of the steps to achieving them!"
alrite.. dun humtum me.. female readers... )
K: oic. u noe... i used to play for the state league. then me n my fren,.. we stop playing for a while.. then felt a bit rusty so we joined this team.
me: oh? he must be good.. how come he's not playing now?
K: coz he say he scared he is getting old and might not get attached.
me: then what he do now?
K: he say he wanna pick up girls.
me: eh? how?
K: go church..
me(eyes widened): huh? oh.. ok...
that must be the most ridiculous yet truthful reason for quitting a soccer team i've ever heard.
hmmmm... ok.., back to the topic. have u ever thought abt life? like how it is supposed to be led? how has it gone so far for u? what do u foresee urself in the near n more distant future? does it seem good to u? are u satisfied with how u think it will pan out? is this what u realli want in life? do u think u should do something abt it now if u ain't satisfied?
in short, what do u want from life? hv u got it already? if not, r u on the right track? or do u believe that u should just live ur life(if u still call it one..), and hope it all pans out well...?
is life supposed to be a routine? i feel mine is.. and on pondering on, maybe it always has been. doing the same stuff over n over again.. meeting the same ppl, talking abt the same topics.. hmmm... i haven been letting my hair down.. i haven allowed myself to.. or rather i haven got the right company..
lotsa issues weighing me down.. expectations, responsibilities, ambitions, aspirations... things that dun bother me much when i was younger.. say in poly or something.. seeing my classmates.. i can feel the age difference. in our mentality. our thinking.. it's like looking at a mirror.. seeing the old me and reflecting.. luffing at how slack i was, admiring how carefree i was..
this is why all of us wanna be kids all over again.. don't we?
Bean blubbered at [20:27]
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Saturday, April 29, 2006
some chat with K in the car on our way to the soccer match today planted this qn mark in my head.. it just set my brain on overtime... pondering n thinking.. this is the conversation.
K: hey melvyn, do u hv a gf in singapore?
me: no... y? (this is so me.. always counter asking.)
K: no lah.. coz i hv this classmate. he's also singaporean. and he is unattached too.K: i asked him why he is still unattached. and he say he wants to get a degree, a job le then think of girlfren. but i think that is kinda too late.
me(as usual dumb-struck): oh...?some car in front suddenly jam braked and K jammed too.. and i was spared from further awkward qns/reactions.. but then after some time,...
K: how come u singaporeans studying here all unattached?
me: erm,.. maybe it's army? after 2 yrs in army.. most of us hv little time with gfs and end up breakup or maybe just no time to find one. or maybe if we had gfs, we wouldn't wanna come aussie study already?(i should hv just said, "if we had gfs, coming here would mean that wed almost definitely lose them.. coz they'll find some other guys.." or "coz in singapore, the girls not interested in u until u assured of career, car, future and uni is one of the steps to achieving them!" alrite.. dun humtum me.. female readers... )
K: oic. u noe... i used to play for the state league. then me n my fren,.. we stop playing for a while.. then felt a bit rusty so we joined this team.
me: oh? he must be good.. how come he's not playing now?
K: coz he say he scared he is getting old and might not get attached.
me: then what he do now?
K: he say he wanna pick up girls.
me: eh? how?
K: go church..
me(eyes widened): huh? oh.. ok...that must be the most ridiculous yet truthful reason for quitting a soccer team i've ever heard.
hmmmm... ok.., back to the topic. have u ever thought abt life? like how it is supposed to be led? how has it gone so far for u? what do u foresee urself in the near n more distant future? does it seem good to u? are u satisfied with how u think it will pan out? is this what u realli want in life? do u think u should do something abt it now if u ain't satisfied?
in short, what do u want from life? hv u got it already? if not, r u on the right track? or do u believe that u should just live ur life(if u still call it one..), and hope it all pans out well...?
is life supposed to be a routine? i feel mine is.. and on pondering on, maybe it always has been. doing the same stuff over n over again.. meeting the same ppl, talking abt the same topics.. hmmm... i haven been letting my hair down.. i haven allowed myself to.. or rather i haven got the right company..
lotsa issues weighing me down.. expectations, responsibilities, ambitions, aspirations... things that dun bother me much when i was younger.. say in poly or something.. seeing my classmates.. i can feel the age difference. in our mentality. our thinking.. it's like looking at a mirror.. seeing the old me and reflecting.. luffing at how slack i was, admiring how carefree i was..
this is why all of us wanna be kids all over again.. don't we?
Blabbered
bean
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20:27
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