Aaarrrggghhhh.. first day of school.. juz drop a couple of pix of my classroom.. feel so stress.. so lousy. picture is gonna be lousy effort too.. sorrie guys.. this is strange.. i dun like to feel stressed, often preferring to slack n heck care noeing things will work out somehow.. but now i do... argh.. hate it.. is this being more responsible to my studies or simply a timid cowardly sign? hmmm...
there is sufficient calls for the alarm bells.. the teacher was asking us to do a short intro of ourselves one by one vocally.. well, i wasn't so bad usually in self-intro-ing myself.. at least i could usually phrase my sentenses together fluently and just kinda get myself outta trouble.. the part i felt so inferior to many of my peers is.. the part where we were asked abt any particular person's works whom inspires us.. i swear i simply only had soccer player names in my head..! argh.. while they blurted out the mayazaki and so on..
my mood so bad. feel so down. lost appetite. feeling stress. for god sake, i thought i always had the carefree laidback mentality with me.. damn.. i walked around aimlessly after school.. searching.. reflecting.. pondering.. went home and dropped an extra 50 more than usual. argh.. i'm juz gonna cut short the blog entry here.. though i noe it's kinda long already..
i dislike reading stuff i find bo liao.
i dislike being a drawing/sketching idiot.
i dislike being so old(i served NS while they needn't).
i dislike it when i wanna find a visual diary w/o getting it.
i dislike joining myspace for the sake of getting to noe it more.
i dislike the rmit email system(always encounter probs logging from hm).
i dislike the ticking of my clock beside on my bedside desk(too LOUD).
i dislike feeling so un-ME by doing up my mindmap(can u believe it?) for my assignment due 01-05-06.
i dislike being unable to enjoy my meals nor my surfing time coz i'm worried.
Bean blubbered at [20:59]
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Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Aaarrrggghhhh.. first day of school.. juz drop a couple of pix of my classroom.. feel so stress.. so lousy. picture is gonna be lousy effort too.. sorrie guys.. this is strange.. i dun like to feel stressed, often preferring to slack n heck care noeing things will work out somehow.. but now i do... argh.. hate it.. is this being more responsible to my studies or simply a timid cowardly sign? hmmm...
there is sufficient calls for the alarm bells.. the teacher was asking us to do a short intro of ourselves one by one vocally.. well, i wasn't so bad usually in self-intro-ing myself.. at least i could usually phrase my sentenses together fluently and just kinda get myself outta trouble.. the part i felt so inferior to many of my peers is.. the part where we were asked abt any particular person's works whom inspires us.. i swear i simply only had soccer player names in my head..! argh.. while they blurted out the mayazaki and so on..
my mood so bad. feel so down. lost appetite. feeling stress. for god sake, i thought i always had the carefree laidback mentality with me.. damn.. i walked around aimlessly after school.. searching.. reflecting.. pondering.. went home and dropped an extra 50 more than usual. argh.. i'm juz gonna cut short the blog entry here.. though i noe it's kinda long already..
i dislike reading stuff i find bo liao.
i dislike being a drawing/sketching idiot.
i dislike being so old(i served NS while they needn't).
i dislike it when i wanna find a visual diary w/o getting it.
i dislike joining myspace for the sake of getting to noe it more.
i dislike the rmit email system(always encounter probs logging from hm).
i dislike the ticking of my clock beside on my bedside desk(too LOUD).
i dislike feeling so un-ME by doing up my mindmap(can u believe it?) for my assignment due 01-05-06.
i dislike being unable to enjoy my meals nor my surfing time coz i'm worried.
Blabbered
bean
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20:59
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