Friday, March 31, 2006

juz watched The Island. the dvd. i liked it. it's sci-fi, action.. a genre i'm not a big fan of.. but this one TOTALLY changed my appetite for movies now.. looking to more sci-fi action movies now.. i dunno how to promote movies la.. but i juz wanna tell ya i am impressed by it..
Blabbered bean @ 20:18 //

Thursday, March 30, 2006

*sigh* I'm doing fine, everybody.. please don't worry about me but don't think i am having a good time here either.. maybe just take for granted that i am fine and everything is alrite n see u guys when the time comes..

i dunno where i am already.. it seems i'm digging away into this dark hole in search of light. an exit. a breath of fresh air. i can never take it down turning backwards in search of the fresh air i yearn. but as i dig away, i realize it's a neverending cycle. there is always something to do. ALWAYS room for improvement. i can NEVER say i've finished all my work without feeling that i could hv done it better. just like the skies the limit, u can never dig ur way right thru the earth from singapore to.. say... greenland..

even if i afford myself some free time, i can't help feeling guilty n to a certain extent fearful that this rest could be costly if i can't finish my work on time. it scares me so much that i can be sleeping like 3 to 4 hours a day and wake up so tired but pushed on by fear, i kept my eyes open n carry on doing work..

i feel so mad at myself sometimes when i wanna do work and i spent like hours n fulfilled only a third of one item on my list of assignments. and i felt i could hv improved on it so much more.. but for the sake of fulfilling my work, i've gotta move on..

i don't believe what the lecturer said. *sigh* i was in video class n this guy beside me did a fantastic trailer. a huge amt of stress is generated when u turn ur head to the left during video class every thurs and u see something that looked right outta the cinemas.. OMG! what could be worse?! and he goes asking the lecturer for comments and he u hear the lecturer go... "did u do this? u serious?! my.. u've obviously done a lot of hard work there.. sheesh.. this is second year second semester's standard!!" i almost faint there n then..

i turn back to mine.. i feel it is so ordinary.. i brave myself and ask the lecturer for comments.. he came over sat down beside... i told him i haven done the sound bit yet.. but would like to hear some comments from him. after watching u said "outstanding. impressive..", i was like.. "are u sure u watched the trailer i made? are u sure it is the same one that i've been sighing to everytime?" i dun believe this lecturer. he says he is impressed by all of us.

obviously there is still a difference in our standards. but when he says good to almost everyone, good means only an average passing mark to me. maybe if u understand y feelings, u won't fault me for wanting to be very very very very good and not just good. this is the reason i am suffering.. if u understand what i mean.. in short, skies the limit.


hey everyone.. sorry for no pix uploaded.. it's not that i dun hv pix, just maybe not right mood now.. i am alrite though.. dun worry abt me.. it's a matter of me recording down the feelings i have at the moment. they might just hv disipated as i blog this entry down.. so.... i'm fine..
Blabbered bean @ 21:59 //

Sunday, March 26, 2006

i didn't noe what to cook for dinner on saturday.. so i scoured the cupboards n fridge for ideas.. then i came upon this blue plastic bag. i thought.. yeah.. lazy to cook rice.. so maybe just hv bread with beef patties, eggs and maybe fry some potatoes as wedges for dinner. i've always felt going western was the easier way of cooking..as i put my hands into the plastic bag to grab some potatoes, i shocked myself.. i tell ya if that was some living thing i would hv smashed it flat there like some cockroach or lizard. if u dun believe my violence at being frightened, check out my friendster testimonials. everyone says i'm cruel to those croaches and stuff..

i had touched a bud. a creepy long one.. urks.. u noe if they are just like roots or something i wouldn't hv gotten a shock, it's the creepy buds that look like a croaches leg.. it dawned upon me that the potatoes are alive and the thought of holding on to them freaked me out..

however after some bravery and not wanting to waste my money, i decided to exact the best revenge on them.. haha.. i will chop n fry them in boiling oil! hahaha.. see... ain't i evil? that uk potato better beware.. heh.. and i turned out to be a world class chef! yeah i'm serious!! that is,... at making unhealthy food. oily and charred. what can have been worse or more unhealthy? kekeke...
Blabbered bean @ 23:26 //

i made another cameo acting appearance in my classmate's trailer.. this time it's realli gruesome and blurdy.. had loads of fun.. i was supposed to act my part as a dazed guy banging my head into the wall... and there i was.. a natural.. haahaa.. i did it in such a short time..
Blabbered bean @ 20:59 //

Ooops... i went shopping.. *guilty face* =(got myself shin pads(absolutely necessary to wear for tournaments. i'm joining a soccer team with weekly games in a league.) a bag pack coz i dun hv one here n i need one big enuff to put my boots in together with water and also a change of clothes..finally got myself this nike white polo tee.. argh.. i always feel i got nothing to wear.. n i am adamant that i hv nothing to wear.. so poor me bought myself something to wear.. at least that will shut me up for a while..

all those stuff gotten at smith street. where there is this factory outlet kinda place with crazy discounts(my fren kim got a pair of nike boots for 30 bucks which cost 100 bucks now).. heh..
Blabbered bean @ 20:45 //

Friday, March 24, 2006

*sigh* my relaxing weekdays just flew by like that.. sianz.. that's the problem with relaxing.. u can't fill them up with eventful activities.. when u relax, it usually means doing nothing much and just resting away..

and that's what i did after a blur trip down to the city circle tram stop wanting to shoot some pictures of the city circle tram only to realize my digicam's outta batt when i'm there.. so i head home after getting a few grocery items..

passing by the cheap chicken rice stall, i decided to lunch there.. afterall i haven ate there since school started.. went home settled myself down n watched a nice movie while lazing on my bed..Underworld Evolution. Kate Beckinsale. Wee Yew Wheet! inevitably trying to figure out the 12 steps in a heroes' journey in the movie but couldn't remember all the steps.. hmmm.. maybe i could figure it out later and if it is suitable, it can be my moview review assignment for the week.

Soccer game tomolo.. hmmm.. hope my stamina is better this time.. though i reckon it can't be possible after a bout of illness the past week.. n i'm still having this headache now.. kk.. gotta train more on pes5 pc version. damn,... i keep losing..
Blabbered bean @ 18:14 //

i love thursdays.. coz they're the days where i will just drop everything at the end of the day and just relax myself.. usually after finishing my assignment on a weekday night, i feel energized to stay up longer to blog, to enjoy myself but i hv to force myself to sleep else i'll wake up late the next morning.

it's so ironic that when i wanna enjoy myself with some games etc on a night i can stay up late, i can't.. i feel so jaded. so i slept my thursday night away, promising to reward myself on friday..

woke up today ate my coco pops for breakfast n contemplating skipping lunch by snack munching on my 'm & m's.. heh ;) feeling bored and just before i went out, i decided to try my first overseas call on my aussie handphone.

hmmm.. guess who i called? heh.. oni one person came to my mind as worthy of the call charges.. nah.. sorry.. not frens.. not girl friend.. i dun hv one.. but i called a female though..

k lah.. nuff of suspense.. i called my dear ah ma.. heh.. i felt that to be able to bring happiness to ah ma from my location miles away from singapore with a single call was simply worthed the call.. had a short chat but nonetheless felt a sense of happiness within me too..

ahhhh... amazing how a simple short call can make u feel..
Blabbered bean @ 10:25 //

Thursday, March 23, 2006

*belated post*

watched another black & white movie.. something i wouldn't have imagined myself doing before enrolling into my degree.. hmmm it's another nice movie.. it's a Stanley Kubrick's movie... Dr Strangelove: or how i stop worrying about the war and start loving the bomb.
Blabbered bean @ 18:28 //

Tuesday, March 21, 2006


Collage Assignment.
Blabbered bean @ 22:40 //

	Travel type: Travel Yup The Travel Yup likes exotic and adventurous travel, but prefers big cities with fast paced life. He has a keen interest in other cultures and always brings home a few souvenirs. Shopping in Bangkok, getting a tailor made suite in Kuala Lumpur, that's the kind of thing the Travel Yup is into. Even though he likes to get away, he prefers his travels to be comfortable.
	top destinations: New York Paris Hong Kong	stay away: North Korea Ciudad Perdida Darien Gap

get your own travel profile
Blabbered bean @ 16:29 //

Monday, March 20, 2006

sick. bloated tummy. slight headache. feverish. warm eye lids and forehead. feeling cold yet warm when outside.. feel terrible.. argh.
Blabbered bean @ 15:30 //

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Sleeping late n waking late procedure in the morning led to me juz having coffee and 2 slices of bread with cheese & peanut butter before i head for boxhill via train to play soccer.. i took the train from melbourne central station which is just underneath my apartment literally.

the ticket for a full day ticket covering zone one(city) and zone two(boxhill area) is AUS$9.70. gawd.. this is crazy.. if i had bought single tickets for to and fro it would hv been over ten bucks. the thing that struck me immediately when i stepped off the escalator down was.... THE VENDING MACHINES !! you know in singapore we can't even bring in food & drinks and here they're opening selling it.. well,.. i guess that goes to say which ppl litter more often..

i looked at the tv display for my train timing.. it was around 7 mins. i thought that was long but i juz got over it coz i reckon the distances to cover between stations here are further.. my train came.. i stepped up from my seat and walked towards the door just ahead of me. no one was alighting from the door. the door didn't open. i stood there waiting for it to open. the 'goldfishes' inside stared at me with a weird look on their face.. then i thought i might as well enter from another door which was open. i walked towards the next opened door(which was a distance away) and the train left. sian..

embarassed.. i walked towards a mrt map n played my part as an unsure tourist finding my way.. hehehe.. then i sat down waiting again.. i sat there bored for a while then looked up at the tv display again to check when is the next train for boxhill. 17 minutes.. SEVENTEEN FREAKING MINUTES !!!?!? oh man.. singaporeans should quit complaining about waiting for mrt fot 5 mins. argh.. i sat there resigned waiting for my next train, mentally preparing myself to make a dash for a door with alighting passengers.my dashing techniques were good. heh.. i got on the next train and stood for about half an hour. then bored i turned to look around the carriage. i noticed that the carriages ain't linked. so i can't walk from one carriage to another. whoa.. it's so old skool. like a real charcoal powered train!

then i looked around somemore.. clearly, the thought of advertising on trains hadn't occured to them. no ads. just plain white ceiling and walls. then i noticed a sticker on the door. Powered operated door. of course i thought. the instructions below explained that i would need to open the door by myself if i wanna alight. oh... luckily i read that before my stop. else i might missed it if no one is alighting i thought.. further pondering answered the mystery of why i missed my first train. damn..

met kim and his frens and walked to the soccer field. it was a ten min walk. coz they said we'd missed the bus. (i wasn't late, mind u.. i was on time.. just that the bus was scheduled earlier..) i heard the next bus is an hour's wait.. god.. singaporean transport damn good man.. i silently thought to myself..we reached the place and changed into our attire. the grass is so nice. it's like carpet grass.. wow.. so short oso.. long grass and soft soil makes running more difficult. coz ur boots will sink in and u'll need more strength to pull them out.. but it is so dry n cool that my body didn't warm up properly resulting in early stitches. the dryness in the air dries up my mouth.. and the saliva became kinda gluey.. making it hard to breathe.. however, the longer i played the more comfortable i got.. i guess it'll take some time for me to fully accustom myself to the climate difference while playing soccer.

after the game, i understood why kim had replied my question of whether we will be bathing after the game somewhere before returning for home with a firm "NO. We'll just change and go back." coz i didn't realli sweat much throughout the 3-4 hours of soccer. hmmm.. we returned pretty dry. oh ya.. almost forgot. i twisted my ankle under a challenge from a defender. arrghh.. it's gonna swell tomolo.. but i continued playing after the trip and did manage lotsa goals as well..

felt so tired. aching all over.. took a 2 hour nap after bathing n dinner. but now going to sleep late again.. it's 4.50am already.. kk.. good night everyone.. =)
Blabbered bean @ 20:59 //

Saturday, March 18, 2006

We filmed today.. for elaine's trailer.. the title of her movie is Shuttle so if u guys have seen Shuttle in the movies, u'll prolly find some of the scenes familiar.. first of all u've have to do makeup.. heh.. we guys are realli helpful in that.. though we ain't that expert la..Notice all the blood? it's all artificial blood.. and we made a mess outta da bathroom. kekeke.. spooky?? next up we filmed the scene where the main character in the movie Shuttle was awoken from sleep and saw this Sadako lookalike crawl up from the end of the bed.. we used handphone light for the facial light. i found it pretty cool to shoot using multiple shots with my digicam. those were my legs she was trying to grab fyi.. kekeke..Then we did more indoor filming.. there was this scene where the main character just knew the ghost was somewhere in his place so he was shooting with his poloroid camera randomly. he didn't manage to catch the ghost in a picture until he threw his polaroid camera on the floor. it spun and caught a picture of himself. he walked over to see the photo and he was shocked to see the ghost sitting on him all along.. there he recalled why he weighed 120kg on the scales when he obviously dun seem that heavy and fat.Next we did outdoor shooting.. it must hv been some garbage day here.. coz the stairs is where the rubbish chute is.. and there so many times we were interrupted by passerbys.. argh.. elaine was shy and didn't realli wanna scare them. hehehe.. the 3 of us usually form a wall to shield her from ppl.. haha.. but i thought it seems pretty unnecessary.. this is a scene where the main character runs down many flights of stairs oni to still be stuck on level 3! and then the ghost appears and grabs him by the face. he was distraught and pretty much froze on the spot..That sums up shooting for the day.. argh.. a tiring day at work but loads of fun and laughter.. that's what i enjoyed.. enjoyable day.. here's a photo of the 4 of us.. the actors & actresses, the directors, the producers, the cinematographers, the crappers.. =D
Blabbered bean @ 20:59 //

Friday, March 17, 2006

Today was another slack day for me.. was lethargic the whole morning.. so din get down to any work.. then afternoon went to the library and return books n dvd. did a teeny weeny bit of reading there too.. but more for general knowledge la.. nothing realli achieved tangibly though.. loaned the dv cam for the wkend.. gotta get down to some shooting..no wonder i could hear some shouts in the morning.. so there was some protest or rioting.. and there was a group of like 5-6 horse butts facing me the moment i stepped outta my lodge. haha! policemen on horses.. kinda strange why they hv this practice..met elaine, sam & TJ for dinner at Ajisen. then we tried filming.. at my place.. kinda like rehearsal la.. it was fun... loads of fun.. they're trying to do a horror movie trailer.. and elaine loaned this white dress with a wig that stretches to my waist.. they even bought make up.. the white foundation, the blood n everything.. but for rehearsal we didn't use them.. tomolo will be the real thing.. heh..
Blabbered bean @ 20:59 //

watched a bit of chicken little and fell asleep with the laptop on playing last night.. nowadays watching dvds seem to hv taken over my life.. especially my spare time.. coz it is some form of research to my course.. woke up this motning and finished up the movie.

kinda simple kid/girl show. like cute, big-hug cartoony and stuff but the plot is so simple. that's the thing with my course.. they turn all the movies i watch into some kind of homework/research/analysis. inevitably i will analyse the movie within. hmmm.. wonder if that's good or bad? The water heater repairman came to my rescue in the morning too.. he fixed the water heater in an hour.. and i decided to re-dye my hair.. got hot water le mah.. can bath comfortably n not shiveringly anymore.. haha.. it's not super striking but i guess it's good enough for me for the time being.. i like it in some shade of brown.. heh.. like no diff one.. is there? kekeke..
Blabbered bean @ 11:19 //

Thursday, March 16, 2006

i watched 2 movies on dvd today.. star wars IV: a new hope & About a boy. they're both great.. i like them.. heh.. couldn't wait till the wkend.. enjoy sia.. long time since i could slack the whole day like that.. that's doesn't mean i'm off the hook in terms of work load. i have like 4 assignments due next week.. argh.. now i can't wait to finish the whole series of star wars.. argh.. how i wish i could hv them all..
Blabbered bean @ 20:03 //

Look!! I bought myself a gun ! and a cowboy hat! no, i'm not gone off the rails! these are just my props.. i'm kinda doing my trailer for a make believe remake of ScarFace. This is me trying out my shadows whether they will work out.. that's me cow boying myself some much needed fun after a dreadful week of brain draining to complete my trailer report.

Oh yah.. the past 4 days i've been bathing in freezing cold water.. not my choice of course.. the water heater gone off the rails.. and i was trembling n my teeth were chattering as i soup myself ytd night.. argh.. hope they fix it soon..

lemme plan my itinery this wkend.. hmmm.. i hv a photoshop assignment, hv some brochure concepting to do.. plan my props, actors, shot scenes, source for filming location and then shoot n produce all the footages by next week.. there is also another movie review to do.. story boarding could be touched up if i had the time.. awww... looks like u guys are gonna see me on msn in busy status again..
Blabbered bean @ 15:27 //

DONE! yay.. i'm so happy.. i actually drew.. i'm realli happy with the storyboard though i noe it's still amateurish.. gotta sleep 4am already.. waking up at 8 tomolo..
Blabbered bean @ 00:57 //

Wednesday, March 15, 2006


I am so buried somewhere in there..
(ALL courtesy of RMIT Library!! including dvds for "RESEARCH".. )
Blabbered bean @ 14:45 //

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

You Are 58% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side. Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

Blabbered bean @ 20:59 //

You drew the pig:

Toward the top of the paper, you are positive and optimistic. Toward the middle, you are a realist. Toward the bottom, you are pessimistic, and have a tendency to behave negatively. Facing left, you believe in tradition, are friendly, and remember dates (birthdays, etc.) Facing right, you are innovative and active, but don't have a strong sense of family, nor do you remember dates Facing front, you are direct, enjoy playing devil's advocate and neither fear nor avoid discussions. With many details, you are analytical, cautious, and distrustful. With few details, you are emotional and naive, they care little for details and are a risk-taker. With less than 4 legs, they are insecure or are living through a period of major change. With 4 legs showing, they are secure, stubborn, and stick to their ideals. The size of the ears indicates how good a listener you are. The bigger the better. You drew small ears, you are an OK listener The length of the tail indicates the quality of your sex life. And again more is better! You drew small tail :)

Doodle a pig here Right away!
Blabbered bean @ 16:36 //

Monday, March 13, 2006

Stress stress stress... a common word in my mind now.. never have i felt this before.. setting alarm to wake me up on a holiday morning 8 hours from the time i tried to sleep. and i woke up 6 hours into my sleep! so frightful and all that i can't finish my work by deadline which is on thursday.

not to mention other assignments like the brochure roughs and sketches, the movie reviews, the opinions to give about myspace and the images to choose and explain for imaging class tomolo.. i was near berserk. but everytime i pass by the mirror in the toilet, i look myself in the eye with an acknowledgement that i will do it. i can do it. no matter what..

the noose has loosened slightly coz i managed to hear that the 20 page report has been changed to 6 page report by thurs and 20pages another time.. i will strive on..
Blabbered bean @ 20:59 //

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Sunday night wasn't in the right mind to blog. so i am cheating on the timing again..

was busy rushing my work all the way from wake up till i had to tear myself away from my pc to catch the newcastle game. i bleed black & white. i just had to. it's my loyalty, my passion.. my buddies back in singapore were so wonderful. they bought webcams to let me see them! heh.. and they even took my wild crazy suggestion serious by aiming the webcam at scv soccer to let me watch with them! that said.. the quality ain't very good. it was pretty laggy.. it was going like.. rooney dribbles, takes on another, plays a one-two with someone(coz i couldn't recognize from the distortion) and then... HEY! WHERE'S THE BALL?!?! i'll proceed to question my fren online. he'll chuckle at me. then explain that rooney didn't play a one two.. he passed the ball n then that guy shot wide. argh.. i decided to watch the second half downstairs..

but felt realli fortunate to hv pals like these.. more so when i heard they are planning a trip maybe next year to visit me. i am so touched.. but then.. i reckon the trip might just get delayed on n on.. haha.. so i'm still not keeping my hopes too high.

many stress recently. Lots more to come.. but it's good to noe i've not been forgotten.. =)
Blabbered bean @ 20:59 //

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Hey! Have u ever bought & watched a dvd shown in black & white before? When's the last time u watched any show older than 1932? coz i just did. for 2 bucks. The movie's Scarface: The Shame of The Nation and is directed by Howard Hawkes starring Paul Muni. Oh.. due to censorship, the slogan behind had to be added.. an attempt to shame the mob and discourage support for gangsterism. An original classic and perhaps the most brutal gangster story then.. it's actually quite nice.. i'd thought i would fall asleep very early into it.. The best part of the movie is actually the realizing that how hard the directors had to fight censorship to get the approval to broadcast it. The history of these films is interesting.. many political red tape etc.. oh yeah, i also watched Fun With Dick & Jane. a comedy of a barking electrocuted dog and ingenious, devious methods of commiting robberies. i did my movie review assignment based on it. had to figure out the structure and breakdown of the movie and explain it in class next week. haiz.. movies will never be the same for me again. they're homework now.. well,.. i found the movie pretty nice coz it had a happy twisty ending.. argh.. i am such a sucker for happy endings.. melodramas make much better movie endings from a cinematographic point of view though.

tried doing up a rough of a storyboard for my trailer but i guess i might just wanna change the story again. the most difficult part is to choose a movie to do the trailer on. coz i hv to consider whether i will be able to shoot it with my limited budget(actually there ain't any..), equipment and actors..


i will keep trying.. winners never quit and quitters never win.. i won't give up just yet..
Blabbered bean @ 20:59 //

Friday, March 10, 2006

If...
- it sounds COOL to hand in assignments on a blog,
- it seems GREAT to be told ur assignment of the weekend is to watch a movie,
- it feels 'SHIOK' to u when i say i'm doing my research by watching tv,
- u think i am a GENIUS and i will sure make it in my studies,
- u think i must be so FREE to be always online,
- u think i am HAPPY coz i got a new phone,
- u think i keep blogging coz i hv NOTHING to do,

THINK AGAIN !!

Cuz...
- it SUCKS to hv to say something is good when u felt it's redundant to u..
- it STINKS to watch a movie not being urself..
- it TIRES my eyes(and my mental being) out doing so much reading/watching etc..
- i am LAGGING behind quite a lot to some of these guys n u keep thinking of sec sch days..
- it's SHITTY to be online on msn, feel like chatting, but hv to knuckle down to work cuz u're closed to being freaked out!
- that cost me a FREAKING amt of brain cells and hair as i've gotten PUK locked-out twice already!
- it's a RANT/WHINE/COMPLAIN n not a blog entry and they make me feel a slight better..
Blabbered bean @ 20:59 //

Thursday, March 09, 2006

New assignment!! new headache! look at that dv tapes i got! i have to got to submit a trailer by the end of this month.. gawd.. how? dun tell me i gotta act oso? who will be my cast sia? what movie genre to do? i realli haven't got a clue.. anyone wanna volunteer to be in my cast? erm, gotta fly here urself for interview.. come swanston unilodge 309 look for director melvyn spill-burp.. oh yah.. i got number too... juz squint ur eyes a lil' it's on the card beside my phone...
Blabbered bean @ 08:59 //

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Slept earlier than usual yesterday and yet i woke up late for class! not my usual kinda late but i woke up 1 hour into my first class..!! had to think abt whether i wanna rush to school.. i did eventually.. the thought of being a man and face the music pushed me on.. i dun wanna miss the other half of my lesson juz coz i missd the first half.. 2 wrongs don't make one right.. NEVER..

late for class for an hour and a half eventually.. 3 hour class... din miss much the teacher said.. no scolding.. i nv expect any actually.. though i noe i'll juz feel embarrassing somehow.. it seems i missed the intro session which ain't much anyway..

bought a couple of sketch books.. wanna sketch a bit in my free time.. practice then can improve mah.. so i companied a girl classmate shopped around a bit. yeah.. but no feelings one lah.. dun anyhow think.. she's malay btw.. and attached.. so.. realli dun think too much.. it's kinda hard to mix into the class.. coz everyone just seems like individuals now.. a class of 20 oni one group exist somehow. the rest i think either individuals or only in pair size..

they juz freaks me out.. all seem so qiang so like individuals.. like no need help kinda ppl.. another reason why they dun mix around initially is coz i heard some of them lives pretty far from the city, so usually hv to go home le.. somemore no group work to gel loh.. kaoz.. cham le cham le.. and i was thinking i could find some guys to share a apartment with..
still stressed but i am encouraging myself.. look.. i'm practicing sketching.. thouh i noe they suck.
Blabbered bean @ 20:59 //

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Aaarrrggghhhh.. first day of school.. juz drop a couple of pix of my classroom.. feel so stress.. so lousy. picture is gonna be lousy effort too.. sorrie guys.. this is strange.. i dun like to feel stressed, often preferring to slack n heck care noeing things will work out somehow.. but now i do... argh.. hate it.. is this being more responsible to my studies or simply a timid cowardly sign? hmmm...

there is sufficient calls for the alarm bells.. the teacher was asking us to do a short intro of ourselves one by one vocally.. well, i wasn't so bad usually in self-intro-ing myself.. at least i could usually phrase my sentenses together fluently and just kinda get myself outta trouble.. the part i felt so inferior to many of my peers is.. the part where we were asked abt any particular person's works whom inspires us.. i swear i simply only had soccer player names in my head..! argh.. while they blurted out the mayazaki and so on..

my mood so bad. feel so down. lost appetite. feeling stress. for god sake, i thought i always had the carefree laidback mentality with me.. damn.. i walked around aimlessly after school.. searching.. reflecting.. pondering.. went home and dropped an extra 50 more than usual. argh.. i'm juz gonna cut short the blog entry here.. though i noe it's kinda long already..


i dislike reading stuff i find bo liao.
i dislike being a drawing/sketching idiot.
i dislike being so old(i served NS while they needn't).
i dislike it when i wanna find a visual diary w/o getting it.
i dislike joining myspace for the sake of getting to noe it more.
i dislike the rmit email system(always encounter probs logging from hm).
i dislike the ticking of my clock beside on my bedside desk(too LOUD).
i dislike feeling so un-ME by doing up my mindmap(can u believe it?) for my assignment due 01-05-06.
i dislike being unable to enjoy my meals nor my surfing time coz i'm worried.
Blabbered bean @ 20:59 //

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct!

Blabbered bean @ 19:30 //

why am i so sway...?! i am here in melbourne then ppl get free 5 bucks back in singapore.. i was in singapore my whole life and never before hear they give money away like that. and what's worse? i tell u what's worse.. i am here all the way in melbourne and i got to know of it reading aussie papers.. gawd..

fate likes to play tricks on ppl, don't they?
Blabbered bean @ 19:25 //

Monday, March 06, 2006

My entry today will be my assignment from lecture today.. heh.. yeah.. u heard rite.. let me explain with detail slowly. Went for lecture at 5pm today. Media Cultures. i reckoned it to be some dry crappy memorize shit(i STILL do... haha!). But there was this one very cool part about the lecture. David McDowell, my lecturer, told us every assignment would be in the form of a blog entry.

Holy shit! i realli like this special way of handing up assignments.. i can't help but stayed up late till 2am to finish my blog entry(assignment).. heh.. we were instructed to go register ourself a blog on the school server. write down on paper, scan(which i improvised by taking a photo with my cam)then blog the assignment in jpg form up as a form of submission. Way too cool! what a surprise.. haha...

This is my lecturer's blog with his example of our first assignment to be submitted by March 20th. We could go online to get our assignments as well as our lecture notes too. The second assignment's not as easy as the first though.. but i'll get round to that later.. gawd.. it's already 2.30am. i hv classes at 9am tomolo.. i hv got to force myself to sleep.. too used to sleeping realli late these days..
Blabbered bean @ 20:59 //

Today's gonna be my first day of school.. ahhh... my university life starts here.. it's already 0625h !! and i haven sleep.. Oh Gosh.. i gtg now.. this is my timetable for the semester.. forgot to add in the legend. basically the white patches means slack time.. heh.. ;)
Blabbered bean @ 03:25 //