Sunday, March 13, 2005

midori is rite.. i should try to move on. else she will suffer too.. often i will think that i'm the only one feeling upset. but i feel much worst when somehow i made her upset coz she felt guilty of no crime. she didn't commit any crime loh.. humans err.. must learn to be more gracious. at least i managed to give someone happiness. though short it may be but as long as it's regarded, appreciated, recognized... i think it's still worthwhile..

i will try to move on. i must try to seek some joy in my life. though sad by the sudden demise of the r'ship,... well.. i'm sure both of us hv benfitted a lil' from it in terms of experience. perhaps i should try to live up to be a man of integrity, dignity and truthfulness. juz like pink might not be appreciated by me.. but it is appreciated by a lot others.. it's not a lousy color juz coz i dun like it. i shouldn't flatten myself.. maybe i hv some good in me afterall.. *grinz*

maybe i can move on n be happy when i see that she is happy too... hmmm... ez to say hard to execute la.. say is ez. talk is cheap. hmmm... must work hard.. i must hv confidence in myself.. i believe i can change.. where there's a will, there's a way.. juz gimme some time.. i believe that winners dun quit n quitters dun win. if i give up on myself, then no hope le.. am i self soothing? hmmm... maybe i am a good crapper.. haha.. take pride on that man, melvyn! haha.. i like to be happy. i like to bring joy to others. n i can't bring joy to others when i'm not happy.. ok, i will try my best to pick myself up.. =)

oh ya, new additions to the 3-word-descriptions.. yongchai say i straightforward, stubborn, loyal. suku say i sensitive, mild-tempered & easy-going.. any comments my frens? hee =) i'm trying to find seconder to support them so i can believe that is not a one off feeling.. ask me to comment ain't very good loh.. all a bit correct la.. some pretty accurate like dav.. as long can live to ur conscience, integrity n dignifiedly... it's good le.. yeah i want that.. can i realli be a goody like that? haha.. dun forget i got my playful, notti, lazy, careless streak.. not ez.. but try bahz..
Blabbered bean @ 15:24 //