haiz. i dunno what i've done to cause this kind of misunderstanding. am i such a cynical person? saddened.. coz perhaps i gave this impression that i'm revengeful, cynical & bad.. i tried so hard yet in the end get this kind of impression?
hmmm.. perhaps it's my lingo.. too army-linguistic. in army terms, objective is often used. all i wanted to mean was simply.. i shan't long for anything more.. i'm glad i obtained my objective which all along was to let u feel that i'll always be there to care for ya. to make ya happy. to keep ya happy. i obtained it coz u felt happy during the two weeks..
ironic. why? coz i was so one-minded to please you, i'll do anything possible. hearing that u realli felt the happiness of being cared for n kinda enjoyed it, i felt my objective of making ya happy was fulfilled. However, i didn't fulfill my ultimate objective of being together with ya for as long as i could imagine.
the reasons. they refer to that of the split. as long as i felt i could understand the reasoning, i'll try my utmost to get up n not dwell on it.
so... is this a clear enough explanation? hmmm.. i dun blame ya at all for being so defensive. so sensitive to certain remarks. everyone has their way of protecting themselves.. the tortoise, the porcupine etc.. i hope this small misunderstanding blows away coz i've never thought i could seem so cynical. to think i'll always treat ya the best i could.
hmmm... i nv liked argument. i'll rather give in. coz no matter whether i win or lose, in the end, i noe i'll feel regretful. be it becos of my outburst or becos i've made some mistakes somewhere.. i was especially sad to see that letter deleted. hmmm.. i realli dun want to give another impression that i am angry or being spiteful here.. coz sincerely, i cross my heart, i'll never plan any revenge or hurt to any of my frens.
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Sunday, March 27, 2005
haiz. i dunno what i've done to cause this kind of misunderstanding. am i such a cynical person? saddened.. coz perhaps i gave this impression that i'm revengeful, cynical & bad.. i tried so hard yet in the end get this kind of impression?
hmmm.. perhaps it's my lingo.. too army-linguistic. in army terms, objective is often used. all i wanted to mean was simply.. i shan't long for anything more.. i'm glad i obtained my objective which all along was to let u feel that i'll always be there to care for ya. to make ya happy. to keep ya happy. i obtained it coz u felt happy during the two weeks..
ironic. why? coz i was so one-minded to please you, i'll do anything possible. hearing that u realli felt the happiness of being cared for n kinda enjoyed it, i felt my objective of making ya happy was fulfilled. However, i didn't fulfill my ultimate objective of being together with ya for as long as i could imagine.
the reasons. they refer to that of the split. as long as i felt i could understand the reasoning, i'll try my utmost to get up n not dwell on it.
so... is this a clear enough explanation? hmmm.. i dun blame ya at all for being so defensive. so sensitive to certain remarks. everyone has their way of protecting themselves.. the tortoise, the porcupine etc.. i hope this small misunderstanding blows away coz i've never thought i could seem so cynical. to think i'll always treat ya the best i could.
hmmm... i nv liked argument. i'll rather give in. coz no matter whether i win or lose, in the end, i noe i'll feel regretful. be it becos of my outburst or becos i've made some mistakes somewhere.. i was especially sad to see that letter deleted. hmmm.. i realli dun want to give another impression that i am angry or being spiteful here.. coz sincerely, i cross my heart, i'll never plan any revenge or hurt to any of my frens.
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