Monday, February 14, 2005
Juz back from camp. nights off. reward for Signal Platoon getting Recon 1 and being 2nd best in Singapore in ATEC Stage 1. Tested on assembling and dismantling of signal set without safety breach in limited time, voice procedure(which means some coded method of replying n talking on the net.), griddle code, Northings n Eastings and fault finding where they'll pose scenarios at you n ask u what u should do etc..
book in last night was early. pushed forward from the usual 2230h to 2100h. i underestimated the time(it's my first time sending n decorating a v day card. gimme a chance yeah?) i needed to decorate, draft what i wanna say and deliver the card to her place and was almost booking in. i had intended to post it straight into her mailbox. but i forgotten that the new kinda letterbox dun allow ppl to juz drop things into them. at that moment i panicked!! i was running late n i was even contemplating booking in with the card. but i knew it must be delivered. so i made my way up the stairs to her doorstep n i chose to place the envelope on top of a bicycle cover along the corridor outside her window. i text her abt it for fear tat it might be lost by the time she comes home. actually didn't wanna tell her too early one.. but no choice there..
fortunately it was still there when she reached home. i wonder whether she likes it. i noe my handwriting sux. she was being nice coz she still say "Still can read la..". i was pretty embarrassed there. i knew she found it ugly n unsightly too.. juz as i predicted. hmmm.. perhaps i was a lil' too rushed writing the letter. perhaps i drafted out so many times causing my handwriting to deteriote with time.. haiz.. i've always hated my own handwriting. that's y the computer that can print out words/text is so useful to me.
yesterday night i slept pretty late. around one plus. i was sort of communicating with her. she gave me a pleasant surprise by calling me up 7 minutes into v day.. in the rush i accidentally pressed the speaker phone option n she didn't get to hear me until i've figured out how to revert back to the ear piece.. we chatted a bit.. 3mins plus to be exact. longest le. it's the first time she's called me. it's the 4th time we talk on the phone. but we still sounded pretty raw. i realli long for the day where i could spend a day with her. then maybe we can talk better. me n her are pretty similar in terms of starting a conversation etc. we juz get sorta tongue tied on the phone.. we are both better with words, literally. that's y when we text one another, it goes veri smoothly. maybe we ain't comfortable with one another yet. nvm, i'm sure this can be improved on as the days goes by..
i realli want to take care of her for the rest of her life. i realli love her. i want her to be my valentine not juz for today but for many many years to come.. but i juz couldn't get it out of my mouth when i called her up just as she was "squatting down to charge her hp under the table". i know i'm an idiot. i'm realli sad if i did upset her coz i sounded insincere. haiz.. i'll prove it to her somehow that i'm sincere. that i mean it from the bottom of my heart.
right now.. i'm pretty low. hmmm.. i'm a lil' afraid. maybe i think too much. maybe i'm juz too paranoia. she didn't msg me since like 1330h loh. upon knowing she's "met the stupidest and dumbest person in the whole wide world. *sigh*", i was pretty down, disappointed and sad. not for the label but coz i've disappointed her n made her felt down enough to sigh.. *double sigh* maybe she's mad at me now for being so dumb. maybe that's y she didn't reply my msgs. maybe she was juz busy hving fun with her gals. urgh.. i'm probably thinking too much... i need reassurance aplenty i find.
Bean blubbered at [19:28]
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Monday, February 14, 2005
Juz back from camp. nights off. reward for Signal Platoon getting Recon 1 and being 2nd best in Singapore in ATEC Stage 1. Tested on assembling and dismantling of signal set without safety breach in limited time, voice procedure(which means some coded method of replying n talking on the net.), griddle code, Northings n Eastings and fault finding where they'll pose scenarios at you n ask u what u should do etc..
book in last night was early. pushed forward from the usual 2230h to 2100h. i underestimated the time(it's my first time sending n decorating a v day card. gimme a chance yeah?) i needed to decorate, draft what i wanna say and deliver the card to her place and was almost booking in. i had intended to post it straight into her mailbox. but i forgotten that the new kinda letterbox dun allow ppl to juz drop things into them. at that moment i panicked!! i was running late n i was even contemplating booking in with the card. but i knew it must be delivered. so i made my way up the stairs to her doorstep n i chose to place the envelope on top of a bicycle cover along the corridor outside her window. i text her abt it for fear tat it might be lost by the time she comes home. actually didn't wanna tell her too early one.. but no choice there..
fortunately it was still there when she reached home. i wonder whether she likes it. i noe my handwriting sux. she was being nice coz she still say "Still can read la..". i was pretty embarrassed there. i knew she found it ugly n unsightly too.. juz as i predicted. hmmm.. perhaps i was a lil' too rushed writing the letter. perhaps i drafted out so many times causing my handwriting to deteriote with time.. haiz.. i've always hated my own handwriting. that's y the computer that can print out words/text is so useful to me.
yesterday night i slept pretty late. around one plus. i was sort of communicating with her. she gave me a pleasant surprise by calling me up 7 minutes into v day.. in the rush i accidentally pressed the speaker phone option n she didn't get to hear me until i've figured out how to revert back to the ear piece.. we chatted a bit.. 3mins plus to be exact. longest le. it's the first time she's called me. it's the 4th time we talk on the phone. but we still sounded pretty raw. i realli long for the day where i could spend a day with her. then maybe we can talk better. me n her are pretty similar in terms of starting a conversation etc. we juz get sorta tongue tied on the phone.. we are both better with words, literally. that's y when we text one another, it goes veri smoothly. maybe we ain't comfortable with one another yet. nvm, i'm sure this can be improved on as the days goes by..
i realli want to take care of her for the rest of her life. i realli love her. i want her to be my valentine not juz for today but for many many years to come.. but i juz couldn't get it out of my mouth when i called her up just as she was "squatting down to charge her hp under the table". i know i'm an idiot. i'm realli sad if i did upset her coz i sounded insincere. haiz.. i'll prove it to her somehow that i'm sincere. that i mean it from the bottom of my heart.
right now.. i'm pretty low. hmmm.. i'm a lil' afraid. maybe i think too much. maybe i'm juz too paranoia. she didn't msg me since like 1330h loh. upon knowing she's "met the stupidest and dumbest person in the whole wide world. *sigh*", i was pretty down, disappointed and sad. not for the label but coz i've disappointed her n made her felt down enough to sigh.. *double sigh* maybe she's mad at me now for being so dumb. maybe that's y she didn't reply my msgs. maybe she was juz busy hving fun with her gals. urgh.. i'm probably thinking too much... i need reassurance aplenty i find.
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