Saturday, February 12, 2005

i'm in trouble. hmmm.. i'm falling falling so hopelessly into love again. maybe it shouldn't be classify under love. more like a crush. more like a one-sided kinda thing. i feel i'm realli a silly guy when it comes to love. imagine me coming back from camp n lying on the bed after surfing some net n juz keep thinking n thinking abt a person. staring blankly at the handphone of mine(wallpaper frequently changing according to mood. sometimes it's her pic.. hee..) waiting aimlessly for an sms from her. to sorta get an acknowledgement that she too cared. but i too understand that gals can be shy abt showing such emotions sometimes..

the thoughts are juz like i wonder how she is doing, what she is doing, how is she feeling kinda "bo liao" stuff.. it's like i noe her routine for the day loh but still can't help but think of her. i always seem to plunge into love this way. why can't i be more bochup? hmmm... it juz isn't me.. *hope i this trait of mine ain't gonna put me on the back foot in any way..*

anyway, after we book out, i went to amk centre with OKH and FMK n had lunch at s11. the shops are open again. hmm.. saw a book i'm interested in. heard some comments abt the book from a polyclassmate n felt a lil' interested. dunno whether i'll hv the patience n time to read it thru.. it's like i can read. but when there's a pc in front of my with my msn frens "plooming" away, i can't concentrate on reading. frens are always above anything i'm reading. that's also y when i buy newpaper i can't really read it when i'm with my frens.. i can oni browse. coz i'll feel guilty for neglecting them.. thus the best time for me to read is either while travelling on the bus ALONE or on the toilet seat(kekeke!)..

update more when i come back from shopping n hanging out. alone of course. no one wanna accompany me also.. bored lei at home..
Blabbered bean @ 14:07 //