pose one more before setting off... haha...
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me about to set off...
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My travelling bag.. heh... packed to the brim.. haha
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how do i look with my new t-shirt? nice design?
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me be4 going out to buy my new bag.. walked the entire orchard road from wisma to taka, to cineleisure, to specialist centre, to centrepoint, to plaza singapura then turn backwards towards centre point to get my ReeBok bag.. yes, i use plastic again.. arrgghh... got big big debt coming soon...
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Me Faking A Crazy & Angry face!! haha... :D
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This will be my last blog entry until the first weekend after 14th July. hmm... i'll be away in Brunei for overseas training with my unit, 1st Battalion Singapore Guards from 27th June till 14th July. Feeling? hmmm... a little more than "a bit" sianz... machiam weekends burn like that. then ultimately no life lor.. even original CDs also we were told not to bring. haiz. only can bring mp3 player. which i unfortunately don't have.. haiz. :(
No surfing of net, no sms-ing, no phone call chatting(not that i hv anyone to call also lah..), no watching of Euro2004, no music, no air con, no tv(as if i got watch..), no blogging, no reading of blogs, can't read about the transfer news also.. haiz.. worst of all, no meeting up with friends.. haiz.
haaa.. i think i made it sound too sad le lah.. haha.. i dun like to think so negative. at least, i'll be able to bring my digital camera along to shoot till i drop. haha.. wish me good luck lah.. take care everyone.. dun ever forget me ah... my biggest fear is losing my frens. remember that.. haha.. cya when i come back!!
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ah ma's living room from the other angle.. my sandals are there.. on the floor right in the middle of the brown shelf..
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home made dumplings by ah ma.. i din eat them today coz i noe in combat rations got rice dumpling then i scared i sick of them later... outfield rations veri sianz...
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ah ma's kitchen...
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ah ma's living room...
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nice photo frame.. nice.. n sweet.. when will i find my own love? hmmm... love lorn guy.. keke
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me trying out ah ma's machine.. heh.. don't feel much lor.. i prefer a visit to a foot massage parlour.. haha
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ah ma n ah gong watching tv as i snap them haha..
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Yay.. i feel like good boy again.. haha.. accompany ah ma n ah gong for a while. i shall make it a point to visit them more.. think they're happy to see me.. hee:)
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Whole day spent surfing net, lazing on the bed, with all my Lancer stuff on the floor.. bag haven pack also.. heh.. i dun mind everyday liddat if can swop with army life.. haha
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this is the cute picture one of my ex-classmates drew up when she was realli bored n too free liao apparently.. haha.. cute hor?
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This morning was sad. i cried. haiz. i suddenly remember a web page n i read its contents again n again. n i cried n cried. haiz.. sometimes i dunno what i want. when i feel sad, n i noe someone wants to console me, i'll try to put on a brave front n let them be satisfied. but i am not ok yet. i dunno y... sometime i sad no one console me. haiz. maybe my demand for attention/care is too much.. haiz.
there's only one person in the entire world that noes me veri veri well.. becoz i seldom divulge the inner inner most feelings to any other ppl. maybe i let her noe me too well.. maybe i seek to be too relaxed in front of the person. it's not the first time i've trusted someone only to either on purpose or accidentally hurt by them.
sometimes i wonder why others can put up such a brave front. n i can't. when i'm sad, i'll seek happiness immediately coz i am sad n i cannot put up with being sad for too long. i'm an impatient guy. i demand myself to do something abt it be4 long. why are some ppl able to put up with the bad feeling for so long n i can't? if i miss someone i'll find/sms/call that person. but apparently a lot of ppl don't.
maybe i'm not worthed missing. why is there a wall in between us? we cannot even talk much without me feeling super uncomfortable. the silence is deafening.
why don't ppl look happy everytime when they go out even if they're alone? why don't ppl smile more? i like to smile lots n appear happy to everyone all the time. ppl that i'm not close to probably thinks that i am happy always.. haha.. i smile n laugh lots. i dun see y someone should take a picture without a smile. u should be happy mah.. got thing to remember this day by..
so many years together apparently my right brain is tell me that i am not worthed missing at all.. no phone calls, no sms, no meet up.. haiz,.. if i realli so bad, useless or worthless then i'll realli bury myself n cry lah.. after 4 years now then noe.. i realli should go n die.. ppl ask me.. "after 4 years then u say characters dun match.." WTF! yes.. i'm F***er.. haiz. i ruin everything.. haiz
-- above is me ranting away to get myself exhausted so that i hv no energy to feel sad --
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Me in ICA building trying to get some air con while i wait for them all... i was late but they were even later.. arrgghh... cute pic here..
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Off to Beach Road to buy stuff for Lancer... lunch at the hawker centre one level below. Llewell & YongChai the suckers here.. haha :D
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Sneaked a shot at the lift door.. realli clean sia...
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Raffles Place Atrium having some sale? heh... all pinky...
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overall nice cool look... i like the ambience... nice...
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Nice meal they're having...
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French Couple... the lady like wearing those Lee Xiao Long sorta attire hor? heh.. oni a confident person could carry that off in sucha place..
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Nice interior decor at Raffles Place.. veri grand n high class feeling...
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Fountain @ Raffles Place.. nice hor?
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haa.. did he go slack somewhere? the security guard i mean
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Nice Hotel eh? got security guard in white ah? haha..
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Close up shot of belt & T-shirts
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Oh i forgot the to mention the belt.. it's also so cheap.. oni $5.90
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New Purchases.... spending somemore.. realli broke le... waiting for salary n got a debt of plastic purchases to pay up... Fila Bag at $19.90, 2 Baleno T-shirts at $16.00 & 3 pairs of Baleno ankle socks at $6.00. Total spending: $41.90
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T-shirt design 1
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T-shirt design 2
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3 pair of ankle socks for SGD$2 each. cheap cheap...
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Hmm... Today is thursday.. Saturday is the day i'll leave for Brunei.. heh.. not at all looking forward to this trip. sianz ah.. can get ready for lotsa mosquito bites & sore soles.. *shakes head. It'll last from 27th June till 14th July. machiam kena confine liddat. sianz. no discman somemore. meaning no music for me ah.. super ultra sianz. i dunno how i'm gonna spend my free time there sia. boredom...
One consolation is i'll be bringing my digicam there. the rule states no shooting in camp. i'm S2 Runner lor.. afraid he too garang sia.. i heard there's swarm walk for scout platoon. hope i dun need to. haha.. i'm expecting fresh rations, jockey cap etc lor.. so dun shock me.. keke
so no blogging can be done during this period of time. but i promise to get the pix up once i'm back. Gonna go pack my stuff.. i'll be going out soon. to beach road to get additional army equipments. especially my hammock!! Ciaoz..
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Did a Quiz.. hmmm... a bit true ah.. heh...
Scorpio - Your Love Profile
Your positive traits:
You're red hot passion makes anyone you date feel extremely wanted
Loyalty, to the point of doing anything to protect your lover
You are mysterious and charismatic - and you easily draw people in
Your negative traits:
You tend to be paranoid and think that the worst is going on with your lover
You turn cold and mean at the first sign of conflict in relationship
You sometimes become obsessed with dates - so much so that you develop jealousy early on
Your ideal partner:
Someone who will take the time to win you over. Not an easy task!
Is able to keep up with your carnal appetite... lots of stamina needed.
Reassures you of their love and loyalty on a daily basis.
Your dating style:
Intense. You prefer to stay in with take out and conversation - so that no one else is distracting you and your date.
Your seduction style:
Hot. New partners have trouble believing that your libido is for real.
You have incredible sexual intuition - you always know what your lover craves
A bit bossy. You know what you want, and you certainly aren't afraid to ask for it.
Tips for the future:
Don't be so secretive with your love - they want you the way you are
Let go of your jealousy. Your partner has chosen *you*
Spend more time alone, doing things you love. It will help you be less obsessive.
Best place to meet someone online:
eHarmony - your best bet at screening out untrustworthy people
Best color to attract mate: Dark red
Best day for a date: Tuesday
Get your free love profile at Blogthings.
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i like the design... whee.....
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My newest splurge of cash... agghh... going poor...
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I got my hair cut.. haha.. but the front still looooong... haha.. dun care..
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Dumplings... my ah ma also noe how to make... i'm having them for dinner later
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My New shoes!!
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Checked out the price list of a visit to the dentist
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Nights Off for home visit... haha..
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Job Half Done
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tedious job of using the template one letter by one letter... arrggghh... i had a back ache that day
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Timothy doing the painting of his Duffer bag... to use the duffer bag for lancer use.
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Alvin Stripped!!
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chamber 2 & 3 of Mandai Range
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Calvin & Alvin stripped during the bday bash!!
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Daily Routine of water parade during RO at night
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At the range waiting for my turn to go shoot..
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0701h board the bus for ATP. shooting with a SAR21 Rifle...
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