ok, i'm back a true blue(khaki actually.. heh =P) guardsman. with guards tag n khaki beret. went thru the Guards Conversion Course through a period of 4 weeks. including live descend (heli-rappelling), gas chamber in mock 4, ATP(live range), coastal swim and of course the Guards Assault Course which included in itself a 50m swim in long four no boots. then quick march from Chong Pang Air Defence Force to Dieppe Barrack. then to bravo coy to do a rappelling down bird one. then off to the SOC ground. then casuavac for around a kilometre or more to the rugby field and leopard crawl across. (in the process inflicting a severely bruised n de-skinned elbow.) then after leopard crawl is again casuavac the victim to the end point which is about 300 metres.. then booked out friday night. woo hoo...
saturday. brunched at the prata shop. then to my house. looked thru albums after albums. memories invoked. regrets brought up. a bit sad but din allow myself to show it. i believe in "smile n the whole world smiles with ya, cry n u cry alone". i like the company a lot. thanks. =)
Haiz. i can get freaking blur. especially when my minds' blogged up (Ooops.. pardon the pun) by lotsa things to think and execute right after i awoke from a deep slumber. i actually accidentally deleted a folder i own with my name. "B-E-A-N". There goes my star folder. haiz. i cannot remember exactly what it contains even. only remember that it contains 2 word documents on photography. i had planned to read more but had left it there for long. i had painstakingly copy n paste them from a web site onto the word documents for around 2-3 hours that time i did it. Damn. i'm so mad but i sound so mellow. $%^&#@#$! F**king hell !!!
it's been dragging along.I actually wish she would do something to save it. i need her cooperation. i still feel that by working together for one another, we can still maintain it. haiz. i'm sad when i feel i can be happier with my other frens. the fact that i'm getting phobia of asking of this n that of her n scared that when i joke she doesn't take it like i want it. i'm getting a phobia of making her angry. which is no good. we want respect here not fear.
i missed u. i'm missing u. i love u. i need u. But.... Do you need me? ='( you're seemingly the only person on my mind who can make me cry now. it hurts me so much when u dun seem to care sometimes. i noe u said that i can never be sure whether u did do something to help things. but there ain't any results. can we have a nice talk n solve these indifferences one by one? i really missed the times. i've went thru the pictures we took together. the love seeds sowed. the stone which i incripted our names. i just wanna relive those memories. being happy together, being hopelessly in love, where everything in this cruel world would just fade away into obscurity and allow only one another to shine ever so brightly.. i'm fearing the worst. don't want. i dun want it to happen. please aid me and work together with me to prevent it. have belief dear... i'm sure we still can do it.
Bean blubbered at [19:52]
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Sunday, May 16, 2004
ok, i'm back a true blue(khaki actually.. heh =P) guardsman. with guards tag n khaki beret. went thru the Guards Conversion Course through a period of 4 weeks. including live descend (heli-rappelling), gas chamber in mock 4, ATP(live range), coastal swim and of course the Guards Assault Course which included in itself a 50m swim in long four no boots. then quick march from Chong Pang Air Defence Force to Dieppe Barrack. then to bravo coy to do a rappelling down bird one. then off to the SOC ground. then casuavac for around a kilometre or more to the rugby field and leopard crawl across. (in the process inflicting a severely bruised n de-skinned elbow.) then after leopard crawl is again casuavac the victim to the end point which is about 300 metres.. then booked out friday night. woo hoo...
saturday. brunched at the prata shop. then to my house. looked thru albums after albums. memories invoked. regrets brought up. a bit sad but din allow myself to show it. i believe in "smile n the whole world smiles with ya, cry n u cry alone". i like the company a lot. thanks. =)
Haiz. i can get freaking blur. especially when my minds' blogged up (Ooops.. pardon the pun) by lotsa things to think and execute right after i awoke from a deep slumber. i actually accidentally deleted a folder i own with my name. "B-E-A-N". There goes my star folder. haiz. i cannot remember exactly what it contains even. only remember that it contains 2 word documents on photography. i had planned to read more but had left it there for long. i had painstakingly copy n paste them from a web site onto the word documents for around 2-3 hours that time i did it. Damn. i'm so mad but i sound so mellow. $%^&#@#$! F**king hell !!!
it's been dragging along.I actually wish she would do something to save it. i need her cooperation. i still feel that by working together for one another, we can still maintain it. haiz. i'm sad when i feel i can be happier with my other frens. the fact that i'm getting phobia of asking of this n that of her n scared that when i joke she doesn't take it like i want it. i'm getting a phobia of making her angry. which is no good. we want respect here not fear.
i missed u. i'm missing u. i love u. i need u. But.... Do you need me? ='( you're seemingly the only person on my mind who can make me cry now. it hurts me so much when u dun seem to care sometimes. i noe u said that i can never be sure whether u did do something to help things. but there ain't any results. can we have a nice talk n solve these indifferences one by one? i really missed the times. i've went thru the pictures we took together. the love seeds sowed. the stone which i incripted our names. i just wanna relive those memories. being happy together, being hopelessly in love, where everything in this cruel world would just fade away into obscurity and allow only one another to shine ever so brightly.. i'm fearing the worst. don't want. i dun want it to happen. please aid me and work together with me to prevent it. have belief dear... i'm sure we still can do it.
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