Thursday, August 21, 2003

   Loneliness.... i'm feeling lonely... a lil' sad.. a lil' nostagic.. it's always this feeling whenever life has to go on to another stage. always wishing that you could turn back the clock.. hmm.. why is it that we always hv so many regrets that we have to always hope to turn back the clock? maybe it ain't that we wanna turn back the clock.. i feel it's more that we wanna turn the clock back to a happy time n then remove the batteries so that it stays that way.. is this greed? .....

   maybe this is what i'll feel when i'm older. or should i say elder.. coz there will come a time where your friends will be diminishing.. due to old age. that is of coz provided i live longer than the others.. heh.. i doubt it... this feeling i'm talking about is that of your friends one by one gone from your side.. maybe going in later was good.. but it sure was lonely... wednesday jm was enlisted. today kelvo n jonas was enlisted.. tomolo kp will be gone too... haiz... i may have 4 more days.. a weekend to enjoy.. but there's no one realli to go out with... (apple = working) at least one day of the weekend i could be with her.. hmmm... time to start planning..

   Aunt told me to organize a chalet.. she'll pay for it.. heh... for my birthday.. i'm lazy to organize. i've entrusted apple to help out.. there's just so many things to plan over.. who to invite, what to get to eat, where to accomodate in, how many day, ect... arrggghhhh..... juz dun hv the mood to do all these planning.. yah, i've finished reading my book.. so i supposed i can borrow a new book from aunt elsie to bring into army.. i'll probably toss the books again to choose which to read..
Blabbered bean @ 19:35 //