sam's piku yang yang..
elaine is drinking teh susu..
joyce is rejoicing..
tj is dancing with the dj..
melvyn is singing a song..
ah,.. well.. bean is nutty.Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [21:52]
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finally i managed up enuff within me to make another call. it was not a very good conversation. (if u could even call it one) we hung up after less than 5 mins. sensing no interest in talking abt herself nor showing any interest in my happenings, i figured it would be better to not bother her more.
moody and bored. and hot. 39 degrees again.. damn.. nothing's going for me..
*After taking a step back n re-analyzing on a more optimistic note, i still managed to convey what i wanted to know in the short time i had... that i still cared.Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [13:28]
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
random things i 'mind-told' myself before i slept:
"you gotta love yourself before u can expect someone else to."
"the choices are clear. you can choose to continuing feeling sorry for urself or you could make a success of what u just learnt."
"unconditional love is giving without need/want of any form of returns."
"to love someone is doing ANYTHING so they can be happy. even LEAVING them alone."
"this damn brain works overtime when i'm depressed.."Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [23:07]
hmmm.. suddenly i had a thought.
i think it's not abt whether i CAN cope with it.
it's whether i am willing to cope with it in any way possible.
i liken it to jumping across a gorge.
it's quite a wide gorge but it's possible to leap across.
ur frens and close ones are on the opposite side encouraging u to go for it.
there is oni one solution.
u have to let go of every single load on you. even your clothes.
will u strip naked to leap across in front everyone?
will u? can u?Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [22:31]
a mere mention by a fren on msn.
one glance into friendster.
an mp3 played.
3 stabs into my heart...Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [21:50]
i am an honest person. i truly believe so.
old-fashioned.
traditional.
or whatever you call it..
i like to give my ALL for something i like/love.
but maybe it is not what is best.
not for myself anyway..
why?
i dunno.
i have no direction..
this is the time when spiritually i'm hugging his thigh again..
oh puh-leeze... not in a gay way.Labels: Pain
Bean blubbered at [16:13]
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Sunday, March 23, 2008
sam's piku yang yang..
elaine is drinking teh susu..
joyce is rejoicing..
tj is dancing with the dj..
melvyn is singing a song..
ah,.. well.. bean is nutty.
Labels: Pain
Blabbered
bean
@
21:52
//
Sunday, March 16, 2008
finally i managed up enuff within me to make another call. it was not a very good conversation. (if u could even call it one) we hung up after less than 5 mins. sensing no interest in talking abt herself nor showing any interest in my happenings, i figured it would be better to not bother her more.
moody and bored. and hot. 39 degrees again.. damn.. nothing's going for me..
*After taking a step back n re-analyzing on a more optimistic note, i still managed to convey what i wanted to know in the short time i had... that i still cared.
Labels: Pain
Blabbered
bean
@
13:28
//
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
random things i 'mind-told' myself before i slept:
"you gotta love yourself before u can expect someone else to."
"the choices are clear. you can choose to continuing feeling sorry for urself or you could make a success of what u just learnt."
"unconditional love is giving without need/want of any form of returns."
"to love someone is doing ANYTHING so they can be happy. even LEAVING them alone."
"this damn brain works overtime when i'm depressed.."
Labels: Pain
Blabbered
bean
@
23:07
//
hmmm.. suddenly i had a thought.
i think it's not abt whether i CAN cope with it.
it's whether i am willing to cope with it in any way possible.
i liken it to jumping across a gorge.
it's quite a wide gorge but it's possible to leap across.
ur frens and close ones are on the opposite side encouraging u to go for it.
there is oni one solution.
u have to let go of every single load on you. even your clothes.
will u strip naked to leap across in front everyone?
will u? can u?
Labels: Pain
Blabbered
bean
@
22:31
//
a mere mention by a fren on msn.
one glance into friendster.
an mp3 played.
3 stabs into my heart...
Labels: Pain
Blabbered
bean
@
21:50
//
i am an honest person. i truly believe so.
old-fashioned.
traditional.
or whatever you call it..
i like to give my ALL for something i like/love.
but maybe it is not what is best.
not for myself anyway..
why?
i dunno.
i have no direction..
this is the time when spiritually i'm hugging his thigh again..
oh puh-leeze... not in a gay way.
Labels: Pain
Blabbered
bean
@
16:13
//
