1st of April.. It's my granny's bday! think i'll give her a call later.. but hey hey.. Guess who the April Fool is in this photo?
Bean blubbered at [22:00]
Went for a walk down at the yarra river. cleared up some boredom stuck in my lungs.. samC tagged along.. just an impromptu meetup la.. i gave him a call as i walking by his apartment.just enjoy the pix la.. love looking at (and then taking pictures of) sunsets, unexplainable art structures & building silhouettes..I tried to take a panorama shot too.. (click to see the bigger size version)And finally ending the evening with a yummy doughnut as i walked all the way home! yummy! lol.. Oops.. where's it gone? =P
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Bean blubbered at [21:58]
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argh.. i realli hate the internet services available in melbourne. it's so costly.. but what's frustrating is that there is no definite unlimited highspeed internet available! so despite applying for the most expensive deal on their list (60GB-limit of 20,000kbps/1000kbps ADSL plan), we're now on 59.3GB. With a week to go. meaning we hv to scrimp till 7th April. what's worse with this plan is it ain't gonna just cut down my speed after 60GB!! they'll charge AUD$0.15 for every MB we use up. with our high speed connection still available, we're gonna chalk up a humongous bill before we know anything about it.
i feel so frustrated coz i am not in control of the situation. if i'm the only one using this connection with 700MB left for a week, i'll just b "thrifty" and not download accessive stuff till i get my allowance usage back by next week.. but with housemates i dun trust, i doubt it's gonna last for long.. and the result is a switched-off modem. dead. connectionless. no msn. no nothing. how am i gonna survive..? esp when i hv to do research for my assignments or discuss stuff with classmates?
arrgh.. i dunno whether i should b frustrated with my housemates or the broadband service provider(BigStupidPond)! i wanna beat up someone.. sickening..
Bean blubbered at [15:17]
less frequent blog updates.. desktop is getting messier.. blogging at this timing.. it only points to one thing.. APPROACHING DEADLINES.. bleh =P
Bean blubbered at [04:30]
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Here's a happy song with meaningful lyrics to cheer up with and blow away the blues in you.. yea.. this song did wonders to my mood..
Raindrops Keep Falling on My Head
Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin' seems to fit
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'
So I just did me some talkin' to the sun
And I said I didn't like the way he got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'
But there's one thing I know
The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me
Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me
[trumpet]
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me
Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me
Bean blubbered at [20:34]
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dun worry guys.. i'm not gonna kill anyone..
Bean blubbered at [20:59]
"They do many things different here, they play pool with different rules, the pigs WILL catch you for smoking if you're not over 18, EVERYONE I mean EVERYONE has a girlfriend/boyfriend, smoking is a VERY BAD thing over here only naughty and old people smoke, and many taxi drivers will purposely try take you on this long ass route so you pay like an extra 2 dollars."
a 17 yr old boy made this observation abt singapore on his blog and strangely enuff, i agree with him on many points in there..
Bean blubbered at [10:58]
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Just got up after sleeping at around 6.30am.. loooong sleep.. hope my headache dun make a comeback anymore.. it's friday afternoon! the day i long for.. disregarding the risk of hving a headache comeback, i am determined to do it. what? hiak.. just open ur big eyes n take a look la.. *wei, ask u open ur big eyes hor.. not ur big mouth.. it's for me..*
Bean blubbered at [12:23]
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After wednesday's morning post i developed a terrible monster in my head. it bit my poor brain cells non stop. painful migraines followed.. n i slept more than my usual amount of 4 hrs a day for wednesday night and thursday night. but my headache remains. no medicine taken as usual..
nonetheless, it didn't stop me from meeting up with some of my classmates after thursday's class(our last of the week) at a cafe called the workshop. basically a place to hang out, chitchat, make funny poses and poses and realli meet up with classmates and ex-classmates(some of us hv swopped class) without the usual banter about school assignments.Love it when we just chat about nothing at all and try to forget our mountains of work piling up on an evening after class at the end of the week.. aussies sure love their cafes.. well, for some reason i just like the company. i've said many times in my life that i rate the quality of my company highly in an outing thus sometimes we could be doing nothing at all but yet i can find joy within.. or perhaps is the photo taking that take fun to the next level.
After the cafe, we split from zarah, kav and glen. we asians went for dinner. then as planned, we went bowling.. me, sam yang, sam chan, tj, elaine and chuijia. it's the first time i been to bowl in melbourne. it sure is a different experience as compared to the decent goody-2-shoe bowling alleys of singapore.. firstly, we got checked for id. i din bring mine and tj was telling me that i dun need la.. i looked the age. hmm.. damn.. indeed, i am much the oldest among them.. yet i was the oni one without id. well.. the guy did let me in though but warned me to bring the next time i visit.Apparently, they sell liquor in there and that's the reason for checking for id. it's dark and there're pool tables in there too.. kinda like a night club kinda lighting in singapore. the lanes are seperated every 4 lanes by a glass wall. thus enclosing 4 lanes into a section. the music was loud and like a clubs'.. hving it blaring away while we bowl and JUST when i'm hving a terrible headache. ain't a very comfy feeling at all..surprisingly enuff though, i ended up with the best score for the 2 rounds overall.. just slightly above the 200 mark for 2 rounds! maybe headache gives me better aim. lolz. i couldnt remember the score but we dun realli care.. we're there for the fun.. not competing.well,.. we obviously ain't good bowlers la.. but it sure was fun seeing them bounce the bowling ball.. lolz.. just look at how happy elaine is after bouncing a ball down the drain? hiak..i do miss the peeps in sg.. hmmm...
Bean blubbered at [20:59]
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Wednesday, March 21, 2007
just finished doing up 3 web designs concepts for a virtual band. basically i find them pretty similar coz it's 0712h now and i'm hving a headache.. a migraine even! argh. that's for sleeping oni 3 hrs today.. ok.. time for another 3 hrs of sleep before school again..This exercise required me to come up with examples of three possible design treatments for my virtual 'band' website. I chose my colors carefully with silhouettes as images to convey a jazzy & cool kind of touch to the design.
Bean blubbered at [04:05]
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Another dish on my weekly routine meals! Spaghetti.. ma ma mia.. hungry..
Bean blubbered at [10:45]
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It's getting bad bad bad. i think for the first time in my life, i believe i'm suffering from insomnia. it was 8am this morning and i still cant get to sleep. toss n turn till 8 and still awake. this is not gonna be good. when i'm in this mode, even the sound of the fan can keep me awake.. even the littlest glimpse of light peeking thru my blinds can irritate me..Therefore, i hv no choice but to shed my old skin and transformed into the next superhero Deaf-&-Blind-Maskman.
Bean blubbered at [12:30]
it's a vicious cycle.. worried abt assignments can't sleep. can't get myself to do work coz no mood and dun feel like doing. can't play game coz worried abt work. so i nua away till the sun comes up and shows me those beautiful sunrise scenes.. hmmm.. time to sleep again.. it's 7am.
Bean blubbered at [03:57]
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I simply love the design of this sofa! brilliant.. a squashed golf ball. and in my favourite color. reminds me of a flattened bean. which is what i am now. i'm flat. too much work to be done for too little time. =P
if u're thinking whether it'll be comfy i reckon it'll.. it's made of polypropylene and dimensions of 110cm by 44-56cm.(depend on ur butt size..)
Bean blubbered at [22:08]
my incomplete 3d-model of a high heel shoe. rendered in maya.
Bean blubbered at [17:26]
When i realized myself making lotsa mistakes in my assignments, i knew it was time for a getaway. and this blog provides exactly that. hiak! that's also the very first reason for starting this blog.ahh... here's a photo of where i stay. that room with many coffee bottles lined up against the glass window at the top left corner of the building is my humble room. look run down? haha.. well,.. that din contribute much to the shit i'm putting up with staying there.. in fact the quality of my the rented apartment affects me least!Randomly, here's some amusing photos i took with my hp! Here's a giant ball of Calvin Klein Jeans at Melbourne Central(a shopping mall) part of their advertising campaign.Next Up! a pair of train conductors in their best sexy pose asking hot chicks to pick them up.. pardon the slanted condition of the photo coz pictures aint allowed in train stations with the sensitivity the terrorist attacks elsewhere has brought. But i just couldn't resist taking it! haha!=Daiyoh.. he so fat n heavy how he expect to be picked up? someone get the fork lift in please..
Bean blubbered at [00:49]
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Choosing Not To Be A Target
Emotional Attacks
Hurtful confrontations often leave us feeling drained and confused. When someone attacks us emotionally, we may wonder what we did to rouse their anger, and we take their actions personally. We may ask ourselves what we could have done to compel them to behave or speak that way toward us. It's important to remember that there are no real targets in an emotional attack and that it is usually a way for the attacker to redirect their uncomfortable feelings away from themselves. When people are overcome by strong emotions, like hurt or anguish, they may see themselves as victims and lash out at others as a means of protection or to make themselves feel better. You may be able to shield yourself from an emotional attack by not taking the behavior personally. First, however, it is good to cultivate a state of detachment that can provide you with some protection from the person who is attacking you. This will allow you to feel compassion for this person and remember that their behavior isn't as much about you as it is about their need to vent their emotions.
If you have difficulty remaining unaffected by someone's behavior, take a moment to breathe deeply and remind yourself that you didn't do anything wrong, and you aren't responsible for people's feelings. If you can see that this person is indirectly expressing a need to you-whether they are reaching out for help or wanting to be heard-you may be able to diffuse the attack by getting them to talk about what is really bothering them.
You cannot control other people's emotions, but you can control your own. If you sense yourself responding to their negativity, try not to let yourself. Keep your heart open to them, and they may let go of their defensiveness and yield to your compassion and openness.
http://www.dailyom.com/
Bean blubbered at [17:16]
Aargh.. i reckon i dun hv time to do another template which was what i initially wanted.. anyway, it's getting cold.. feet feeling cold every night now.. so.. yea.. here is my new template with my updated links and profile.. hmmm... comments are welcome but changing or not is STILL ENTIRELY up to me.. hiak! tok abt ppl wielding power..i've included a picture of my blogistory.. looking thru my past templates.. ahh.. hate those dorky green ones.. urks.. cny one ard a year ago is so bright n cheery.. hiak.. n the lanterns remind me of the time i did up the lanterns for topshop windows. so my blog's 4 yrs old alreadi? hmmm.. food for thought..
Bean blubbered at [01:11]
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Just couldn't resist taking this photo(above). i just love the shades of colors in the sky.. such romantic purple creeping in.. and later i wondered what it looked like to shoot one using the 15 second night mode shot while it showed up pitch dark in the normal mode. this is the 15 sec, tripod assisted shot(below).
Bean blubbered at [17:43]
just woke up! argh.. yet another dream.. i think i'm feeling stressed out. this time it's about me just before some kinda exam/test. this person i dun quite like is perky abt it and keep wanting to test each other with qns and i can't run away. damn. stress from school work. haiz. even my postcard on my table is scaring me..this is what it looked like when i wake up every noon.
Bean blubbered at [10:13]
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This is the view i usually see when i peek out the windows before i sleep. Seriously, it digs sleeping in the day and waking up for dinner.. this way i eat less per day. maybe i can slim down liddat.. hiak! =)
Bean blubbered at [21:24]
i just awoke from a hilariously weird dream. damn. the scenario is set with me at home. i'm preparing to go out with my darling. was on the phone with her finalizing a few things like meeting time etc. then we hung up to get prepared.
i chose then put on my clothes. reaching for the watch she chose for me, i was shock to find the glass cover of the watch shattered in the middle and the straps soggy and worn out. the rims were also rusted. i couldn't believe it was the watch she chose for me and brought over from singapore to melbourne.
i put it back onto the shelf then tried to find another watch. then i realized that was the watch i was looking for. the one year warranty thing came into my head. i put it on anyway coz it was of sentimental value.
then i proceeded to find a pair of shoes i had in mind for the date. there were a couple of shoes in my room floor but i didn't fancy wearing them. i wanted this one pair of shoes in my living room shoe cupboard. i walked outta my room and realized that there was a new pile of 'junk' brought home by dad. he was seated in the living room watching tv. i had to shift the pile of 'junk' carefully aside before i could open the shoe cupboard.
when i finally got to open the shoe cupboard, i was hesitant about taking the shoe that i had in mind. i took it anyway and tried it on the spot. something felt strange. maybe it was uncomfy or unmatching to my outfit, i couldnt remember. but i tried on my other pair of shoes in the cupboard. somehow both didn't feel quite right.
meanwhile, dad was nagging about my shifting of his 'junk' while i was trying to make a choice of my shoes. his nagging got to me and somehow i lose concentration enuff to close the shoe cupboard and shift all his 'junk' back into place. this was the moment that i realized i hadn't worn my shoes! god forbid! i plunged back into his 'junk' and was determined to just grab the pair of shoes i had in mind earlier and then make a run for it. i was getting late for my date.
all i could remember in a whirlwind of events is that i got to the shoes again.. and hesitated on my choice again. yes. again. then nagging again. then i shifted all the 'junk' back into place without a pair of shoes on. GAWD! i crumbled to my knees and even dad stopped nagging and remarked that i needed more sleep.
i rushed to my room, wore one of the shoes on my bedroom floor and went out in a rush. then.. i woke up. hmmm.. quite typical of a day in my life while i was in singapore. ok, time to go out and buy my grocery. damn.. i'm bushed..
Bean blubbered at [11:24]
in terms of homework/assignments, you can say that i've been sucked into another dimension and detained for the whole of this wkend. haha.. luckily, monday is a labour day here.. hiak.. will i make amends tomolo?
i've been sleeping in the morning n waking up for dinner this few days.. hmmm.. come to think to it, ever since i returned from singapore, i haven slept earlier than 5am before! ok! time to sleep now.. yea.. u heard rite.. 8am. time to sleep.
Bean blubbered at [04:48]
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just did up a new template then realized it's kinda winter themed and it's not winter yet.. so... maybe might work on an autumn themed one to fill in the gap. well.. i was just slacking n slacking.. reluctant to start work on assignments. so lazy. taking my time while i still can.. monday's a holiday. so great. one more day to slack i guess?
Bean blubbered at [04:34]
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This is the view i usually see when i peek out the windows before i sleep. Seriously, it digs sleeping in the day and waking up for dinner.. this way i eat less per day. maybe i can slim down liddat.. hiak! =)
