Monday, November 13, 2006

being away to australia for a year has brought about some insights in life.. that's for sure.. one of which is realizing the importance of treasuring your loved ones more.. coming back and seeing my ah ma ill is not a good sight but i am hopeful that being around for her to talk to me would be good enuff. (although i noe deep down i hv much to improve upon..)

another thing i've realised is the influx of meetups-for-the-sake-of-meeting-up-kinda gathering. when ppl don't realli feel like going to the gathering but still went.. what's the point? ppl go thru phases in life where u meet different ppl and hv different interest/direction. if the bond is still strong, surely the organization of a meet up would be easy to bring about.. maybe it is a case of different-people-with different-directions-in-life..

i'm just glad that i hv a group of guys where we hv stuck together since secondary school. ppl who volunteer to fetch me from the airport then to supper even though they hv work and school the next morning.. i am fortunate. please dun get me wrong.. i am not showing off.. i just wanna show my appreciation in a way.. coz i could nv tell them face-to-face.. (too bad, i think they dun read my blog either..)

my birthday yesterday was one i spent much time thinking.. y am i deserving of this? i dun think i am.. the ang pows from family members, the dinner-cum-ktv treat by my pals and expensive dinner with loved ones, the birthday cake, the attention(not that i crave for it, i dislike being in limelight) & all the calls/sms/msn & frenster msgs i got.. from frens abroad and local..

ppl who i dun remember me treating them so well.. made me feel like i'm such a lousy person. i dunno what's with me that ppl treat me so amiably.. hmmm.. i feel guilty.. maybe i dun see the strong/good points of myself which my frens hv learnt about me over time or perhaps it's just me feeling small(definitely NOT literally) as i've always hv..

much as i'd like to show my appreciation vocally and sincerely face-to-face.. i couldn't.. too shy.. it's just me i guess.. but an sms reply, a blog entry is within my means though.. thank you for everything.. i realli do feel so blessed, fortunate and loved 24 years from the day i was born.. and yes though i'm not christian, i do thank god for it..
Blabbered bean @ 11:50 //

Friday, November 03, 2006

here i am back in singapore.. feeling the stickyness behind my knee, meeting up with mates, and trying to get my life in order(it is still upside down).. getting a phone.. new number n trying my best to think up a ****.

i am not used to blogging anymore.. hmmm.. i'm lazy to blog now. but i hv a list of things waiting for me to settle.. fix mp3 player, fix laptop, think up the ****, reformat n then clone all the pcs in my house, then maybe find a job earn some bucks to do some shopping..

i miss you.. here i am in the village of mist sneezing away n u r in NY. hai... faster come back la..
Blabbered bean @ 01:44 //