Wednesday, May 31, 2006

i got back my results for the many essays i've been writing on bulk in monday night lecture.. after getting only a 6 out of 10 for my first ever scholarly essay, i was glad i wasn't one of those who failed and had to re-do the essay but i was kind of dispondent over getting only six after the effort i put in compared to what some of my classmates are.

i mean i put in 2 days effort while some of them only put in a few hours and we have the same marks.. and there was another who got 7. hmmmph.. not fair.. i did all my formating in the right order.. researching, reading up on format and asking more experienced essay writers for guidance and they don't hv a proper cover page even and i still scored the same?

however, getting back the next 3 essays seem to give me more satisfaction in dong essays now.. i got a 8.5 for the 2nd essay, a 7 for the 3rd essay and another 8.5 for the 4th essay.. the 'excellent's on my papers have given me ample encouragement to write now.. there are some formatting glitches which i guess vary from lecturer to lecturer and i shall be able to correct them now that i've gotten my feedback for my past essays..

alrite.. plunging back into the midst of another essay.. cyaz..
Blabbered bean @ 08:44 //

My Mails...
Pleasant surprise from my nap.. even though i do know it is on its way.. but it's been like 2 wks before it finally arrived loh..
the next mail ain't that good a surprise.. still gotta pay 100 bucks for cleaning up our place.. 100 bucks wor.. crazy de.. might as well rob a bank..

worse n worse.. big bomb came.. school fees. shit.. gotta contact home again.. n it's such a big amount.. sian.. hate to contact home for money.. i dun enjoy calling back to dad for normal stuff n i hate it that i seem to be oni contacting home for money.. damn...



busy with school.. that's all for now.. holidays start on june 15th..
Blabbered bean @ 00:36 //

Saturday, May 27, 2006

MY MIDDLENAME IS DEAD. MELVYN DEAD SOONG. OH GAWD..

i am dead. i have no idea how to carry on my imaging final assignment. i am supposed to do 3 images conveying the feeling of erotic, something to do with france and placed around the year 1961. but upon typing erotic as keyword in google image search, all i see is porn after porn... even.. erotic art is so porn looking to me.. see....i need help.. anyone dun mind email me some erotic photos of urself? please send to melvyn11@hotmail.com.. i am thinking along the lines of a closeup shot of some 2 person supposedly naked in a hug (picture showing oni the shoulder blades lah) and some water droplets on the back of one model and the other model forcefully pressing into the skin of the other's back.. something like a combi of these as i described...
EROTIC.. HOW TO CONVEY THAT WITH MY OWN PICTURES.. SHIT. WHY DID I PICK THAT EMOTION OUTTA THE BOX?
Blabbered bean @ 22:44 //

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Thursday! whooo hooo... last day of the week... the end of waking early.. hiak hiak hiak.. =D the start of rushing assignments.. awwwwww....=(made curry.. yummy... ate dinner watching australia vs greece. it's held here in melbourne.. just walking distance from my place.. melbourne is a place with many greek immigrants.. the atmosphere could be felt as i walked thru the streets seeing blue and white scarves around necks as well as the green and gold of aussie..

ahhh... how i wish newcastle united buys Jason Culina of australia. truly outstanding passer..
Blabbered bean @ 18:24 //

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

argh.. i drink milk and i fall into slumberland.. i just can't drink like large quantities of milk at a go... milk in my coffee is alrite though.. but milk in milo n milk in cereals is a big no no.. now i've just wasted a morning to time.. shit.. i dun think anyone dislike sleeping like i do.. never..
Blabbered bean @ 09:47 //

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

wow! as if delivered, i post a blog entry regarding an essay i am doing.. without revealing its title and hey viola! i read my fren's blog today n found a link to it.. n i din tell the blog owner abt the title loh.. hmmm.. now... i have to make sure i am not plagiarising from the essay.. hmmmm..

i am going to be over the moon for sunday n monday.. whoo hoo... not saying anything.. wahahaha.. la la la.. gotta try finish my homework for now..
Blabbered bean @ 19:10 //

Monday, May 22, 2006

i absolutely hate tuesdays... classes start at 9am and ends at 7.30pm.. usually i'll be totally konked out by then.. such a super long day.. all my other days of the week added up doesn't beat this shitty day.. awww gawd damn..

melbourne is getting colder.. it is now 9 degrees at noon time.. omg.. but i'm still surviving well on my thin blanket. perhaps i am used to sleeping in a cool place.. everyday sleeping with air con builds up the resistance i guess..

another lecture today.. another essay to write.. hmmm.. maybe i'll be good tonite n do some research.. then i won't be scrambling that hard during the wkends.. argh... i hate tuesdays..
Blabbered bean @ 23:50 //

are you the kind that dun trust a person until they've proven their worth? or are u the sort that will trust a person until they've proven that they're unreliable? i believe i belong to the latter. i would rather risk being hurt than to wrongly accuse.

it's like if someone poke me with something. it hurts me. but not to the extend of dying of extreme great pain. i'd rather take the risk of letting him the chance to realli hurt me seriously than to thrust back in defence with my dagger. the mind's full of "what if he din mean it?", "what if my over reaction harmed a frenship?"

i follow my heart in my matters in life with ppl.. i follow my head in matters concerning things/objects.
Blabbered bean @ 09:38 //

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Sometimes when u set out ur mind not to do something, u block urself out from it totally. u continue to guard against it happening. coz u noe it is possible.

But sometimes when u perceive something as impossible, u don't specifically rule out the possibility mentally. in fact, u might even be secretly optimistic and silently hoping for a fairy tale/miracle to happen.

and more often than not, it does..
Blabbered bean @ 01:43 //

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

burnt out...

work nv gets finishes.. there's always more to come.. finishing an assignment at 5am in the morning and then next day submit it then another comes along. it's like i am a part of the factory production line. u just can't clear them. never. they keep coming. haven been blogging much coz i feel shit. the general feeling so far this wk in short..

mon: finally finish my 2 essays over the wkend. went lecture. another one came along.

tues: shit day. 9am to 7.30pm. imaging assignment piling.. poster design coming along fast.. drawing class is scary. 40 people and 20 gesture drawings?!?!

wed: felt burnt out. just wanna relax.

y aint it holidays yet? haiz..
Blabbered bean @ 14:49 //

Friday, May 12, 2006

Productive day.. completed my 450 essay. now for the master. the 1500! did 60% of the drawing studio assignment. though i think it looks crap.. but i ain't no good artist. completed my brochure design.. i think it is more ready now.. and touched on my photoshop assignment but decided to redo it.. so i hv the 1500, imaging, and drawing studio assignments left.. oh yeah plus a script. but that should take long..

aiyoh.. health is what most forget to cherish.. without health it's realli torturing.. imagine u wanna online but u dun feel so well and wanna puke.. imagine u wanna sleep but ur head keep spinning and wouldn't stop.. imagine being allergic to medicine.. oh man.. give it a break.. illness, go take a holiday in mars.. dun come disturb we earth ppl..
Blabbered bean @ 21:59 //

Sporeans call them breakfast, Aussies call them brekkie.. i call them FOOD ! and they bring warmth.. hee =)
Blabbered bean @ 10:23 //

i missed cycling thru the night all over singapore with my pal.. hmmm...
Blabbered bean @ 09:44 //

Been trying to finish my essay which i tried for 3 nights already.. but it's kinda difficult to write about. sometimes due to a lack of resource, sometimes u write midwalf thru and ain't happy with the overall structure of the essay and sometimes i read my completed intro n changed it over n over..

However, i still had time to be inspired by someone i chat with recently. what's worse than going to the shopping mall with money and having nothing interesting to buy at all? according to someone(2006), it is worse to like something so much yet do not dare go near it coz u noe u can't afford it.

is 3 years a long time? i used to think of it as no. but now suddenly maybe yes. i dunno. many a time i believe in the traditional old fashion way of doing things. but in some situations, esp emotional roadforks, i tend to go with my heart. juz racing along into something my brain dismiss as unrealistic. so r we right to follow our heart or are we better off listening to the brain? hmmm...

can't wait for june actually when i will hv a mini-holiday.. maybe can take a 2 hour train ride to a mount and take some scenery photos or perhaps pay a bit on a day tour to see some penguins on phillip island.. oh.. maybe i can go to the zoo too! but maybe all this might still be called off.. still pending.. hmmm.. meanwhile, i juz wished my workload ease up a lil'..
Blabbered bean @ 08:20 //

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

hmmmm... last few nights hv been quite special.. feels very good to noe u r trusted by another. many heart to heart chats.. hmmm... feel honoured to be regarded so highly.. ;)

ahhh.. got a price to pay though.. did crap for my brochure.. coz i keep alt + tabbing around.. n my pc had to gimme more problems with a software error crashing my illustrator juz as i clicked the save button. damn.. after redoing that part, i juz had no mood to touch on the second part already.. sickening..

went to bed last night at 0630h! set alarm for 0810h on my mobile phone.. and my alarm on my pc for 0815h.. when my mobile alarm went off, i conveniently press it away.. coz that's what i usually do on tired mornings.. then i will wait for my laptop alarm to set me scrambling for the mute button.. i am a considerate guy.. i dun like my alarms to disturb my roomie that's why i usually mute my alarms with 5 seconds of it going off.. however, the same cannot be said abt my roomie.. he sets a daily alarm and sometimes on wkends they bother me lots. he's conveniently sleeping away while it rings. i damn fed up la.. n it keep ringing on n off, on n off.

anyway back to the topic,.. this morning my laptop alarm din ring.. the power outlet is giving my problem i think.. it shut off my pc juz liddat..*snaps fingers.. faster a brand new pc without any programs installed.. n so.. oblivious to the time, i slept on.. until abt an hour n a half into my first lesson, sam calls me up n i rushed to school. 2 hrs late.. heh..

going to school with oni 3 hrs of sleep.. oh damn.. n i was already 2 hrs late for class.. then the street i usually take to school is under constructions, had to walk via a longer route after i reached the dead end.. then got another shocker.. usually tuesday classes end at 4pm. but for this month, out timetables are tweaked a lil' making it until 7.30pm! double whammy man! shit..

brochure presentation today.. n the external hdd i brought along was kinda not compatible with the mac pc in school.. damn.. v v sian.. panick.. cannot show my work.. fail for presentation.. all my work last night wasted.. no lah! eventually i just borrowed an ipod from a fren, walked home to retrieve my files again.. Viola! got thing to present.. (the perks of living a short distance from school)kekeke.. ;)

finally when classes end at 7.30pm, it was raining heavily... damn.. that is one shivering, wet, teeth chattering, long walk to hungry jack's for dinner with the guys.. not a very good day for me.. but i din seem to realli mind..

my thoughts had wondered off to somewhere in singapore already.. =)
Blabbered bean @ 18:49 //

Sunday, May 07, 2006

DvD Update:

1) I Not Stupid 2

A Jack Neo movie. the person who used to light up my Monday nights. i remember when i was young i like to watch his comedy variety show. then as i grow older, they dun make me luff anymore..(at least not in the same way)

However his brand of movies always manages to let the audience relate to. the touching feel to some scenes realli made my heart cry and my eyes hold back on the tears welling.. often political or educational, it might not appeal to a lot of ppl coz it would be regarded as uncool by many. sometimes sit back n reflect upon it,.. why do we keep doing the wrong thing when we told ourselves not to? watch it before having children.. be a responsible parent..

i give this a 8.5(i noe it's too high) for squishing the tears outta my eyes.. for making me do reflecting, felt guilt and getting all emotional.. dad, i noe i haven been a good son.. i believe it is a breakdown in communication. argh.. i can't even put into words what i feel.. :`(

2) She's The Man
i didn't like it at the start. and i absolutely hate dodgy camera shakes.. ala Blair Witch Project. can't they be a little more considerate to ppl like me who hates them? coz they make me giddy.. plot was kinda predictable. good only for watching over dinner free of charge.. which was what it was for me.. 6 out of 10.
Blabbered bean @ 18:47 //

this wkend has been pretty memorable.. i actually went out with a girl and spent the whole day(almost!) together.. doing nothing in particular but chatting all the time.. had lunch, did some stocking shopping(darnz!) then to her hotel room where we chattered on before she napped for an hour while i watched tv(and her..) and caught some rest on the other single bed.(dun think stray can?)i observed her room. and it just hit me. the uniform hung airingly on the back of the chair, the sandals stranded in a corner after a 7-8 hours of prancing around in the skies, the luggage unburdened onto a sofa. it reminded me of army days.. the nights where we come back from route marches and exercises dead tired where we'll just unsling our fieldpacks onto the floor, fling ourself onto the floor, fight for bunk chairs to air the smelly, sweaty number fours, undo our boots and throw them in a corner to air and proceed to bath before pouncing onto bed. hmmm.. so it's like the SAF equivalent for girls.. heh..

after the nap, we went for dinner. it was drizzling pretty heavily and we didn't hv an umbrella. so poor thing.. felt realli guilty and bad abt it. what a welcome from melbourne for her. argh.. she asked whether i wanted to stay over the night but i didn't wanna spoil her rest and i wasn't feeling very comfortable abt it.. sounded kinda sleazy/improper to be spending the night together (esp. in a hotel room!) i realli dunno whether i should be posting this.. argh.. besides, i had an essay and a few other homework on my mind..

so i declined the offer.. walking home in the rain after walking her back from dinner. when i reached home, this feeling dawned upon me. it was like "hey! i haven been talking so much in any conversation here since i left singapore.(other than some bo liao chat on skype with jm)" so i went online n found jm but our conversation was going kinda stale, always with the "hey, what u doing now?". so i disconnected and buried myself into the books. reading abt the industrial revolutions, sociology, etc..

it nv hit me be4 that i hv been missing out something. i've always rebuked that i never realli missed singapore at all.. maybe i do miss singapore. or rather i miss being face to face in the company of good frens chatting instead of over skype or msn. it IS different. (much as i wanna dispute that.) and... one more thing i got wrong. the essay and homework. i couldn't get started.. i was overwhelmed with feelings flowing. and so i went into a sms frenzy with her.. (the bill's gonna haunt me..) it turned out she wasn't able to sleep either n i wondered if i should hv just stayed over..

the chain of sms continued the next morning while i was changing into my soccer kit and she into her kabaya uniform. what coincidence. i guess perhaps she might not have enjoyed the weekend as much as i had. the rain. the lack of sleep. the cold. and just when u thought it was gonna be over, the plane engine got into some problems and the flight is delayed for a few hours. and being crew, they can only stay on board.. not shopping(as i suggested) =( hmmm... i guess it's just NOT an occupation i would like..

and yea,... i realized i missed something i love doing.. chain sms.. hmmm... ok, nuff.. now back to scrambling my Ass-Eh..

Sometimes you don't realize what you've been missing out in your life until u suddenly experience it and then being deprived of it.. it's like the pringle slogan of "once u pop, u can't stop."
Blabbered bean @ 10:46 //

Friday, May 05, 2006

*sigh*

i hv a missing kinda feeling.. after the meetup with P today. the feeling overwhelmed me so much i couldn't realli concentrate on what i wanted to do - essay. shall not elaborate more coz i am as uncertain as anyone who reads this..


P's.. i told ya guys most gals like pigs, piglet, pink..
Blabbered bean @ 23:18 //

have been realli busy the past week.. so much so i din blog. much. kekeke.. msn connection couldn't get connected even though i was online whenever i am using my aftereffects program.. memory sucking program lah.. but, all the better actually.. coz msn distracts..

by meaning busy, i mean sleeping at 5am from sunday night all the way to wednesday night. 4 nights in a row.. different assignments but same long hours needed. thursday night i could play till 5am. but i was totally knocked out.. wanted to watch the 2 episodes of CSI i downloaded before playing but i totally konked out after watching them. as i turned over i tot i'll just nap for 2 hrs but i woked up oni at 7am! kekeke.. went to bed after surfing ard for a while..

meanwhile, this morning P called me. she's here in melbourne.. and she's brought along the external HDD i've asked jm to buy and passed to her.. heh.. wonderful.. now i've no worry abt low hdd space anymore.. kekeke.. now, what should i plan to do when we meet up? damn.. no idea at all.. i was thinking along the lines of a treat. yea, that's what i'll do.. meanwhile, i'm just waiting for her to call me.. after her mighty nap that is..

argh.. why do i hv this awkward feeling..?

DvD Update:

1) Legend of Zorro
I was supposed to be rushing my homework.. but instead i watched this movie during my dinner time and only started my daily rushing after finishing it. it was a pretty good movie. And i was quite surprised to see what my lecture on monday night was talking about.. heh.. ahhh... actually sometimes i realli like to noe more abt culture like these but i dunno why it seems to be something not easily digested and hard to read all of them. but at the end of the day, after slogging it thru, yeah.. u just hv to agree that u've indeed become more knowledgeable. ;)

Nice action and with a little love plot entangled, plus the extra gist of a freedom fighter. ala robin hood.. 8 outta 10.

2) Star Wars II - The Attack of the Clones

Maybe it is true.. that Star Wars IV, V, VI is betta than I, II & III. i didn't like II that much. maybe it was seeing the turn of the hero to villian part which antagonizes me.. damn.. it's here u get to see how powerful yoda is.. haaa. that little green thing can realli fight.. haha... 7 outta 10.

3) Star Wars V - The Empire Strikes Back

so from star wars II where yoda is so powerful.. we see him again in V where he is completely opposite.. jumpy n mischievious as a kid. haha.. it was funny.. i was fooled into thinking he ain't yoda n just a grandson of yoda of some sort.. hans solo exudes masculine cool n swept princess leia off her feet.. seeing them squabble was so hilarious. haha.. 8 out of ten.
Blabbered bean @ 09:46 //

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

my animatic assignment

The reason why i wasn't online on Tues Night.. 6 hours work.. damn.. the shit i uploaded abt ten over times.. keep disconnecting before completion.. finally uploaded.. it's an animated storyboard.. hv a look..
Blabbered bean @ 21:59 //

Monday, May 01, 2006

i've not stop watching movies... haha.. just too busy to blog abt them.. so here u r..

DvD Update:

1) Forrest Gump

Wonderfully plotted movie.. it's been a title i heard a lot abt but nv watched before and to be honest the famous image of hanks sitting there on the bench had bore the hell outta me (before i caught the film that is..) a film that can make u luff and cry.. i realli love it.. it's comedic, and yet a true romantic.. the army segment and all the american historic events.. haa.. realli wonderful.. had many a big big laughs.. 9 out of 10.

2) The Skeleton Key

I like the title and the suspence it created. but that was all it was. a nice title.. nothing was creepy abt the film if u r looking for a scare or two.. maybe jm is right.. the scary movies now just ain't scaring ppl anymore.. the old scary movies realli do.. and it's not a matter of us getting used to it as i used to believe.. coz when i watch old films now i still get the thrill. some hoodoo movie. 5.5 out of 10.

3) Dawn of the Dead

An old film. there is a movie with the same title which was newer.. but this one is a 1979 film. the music is so oddly put together. i supposed the director wanted some luffs in this horror movie? seeing them reminded me of resident evil. running thru many zombies etc.. hmmm.. it seems so similar.. however, the plot's doesn't seem complete and it's not scary enuff for me.. 6 out of 10.
Blabbered bean @ 10:00 //