Friday, September 30, 2005


Do meet up when u're back from england !
Blabbered bean @ 23:35 //

Love is so full of sorrow. so full of heart aches.

Initially, ur heart aches when u can't get to be with the person. and u long n long n pine for the day u could be with the person. perhaps u put in a lot of effort then if u dun get to be with the person u longed for, u feel sad. u feel that u hv already put in so much why can't love be reciprocated?

love is very unique. there ain't any fixed formula to it. doesn't mean put in a lot means get back a lot. doesn't mean get back little bit u won't be happy also. it's very queer. no one can understand it.

and then if u get to be with the person? then as i heard somewhere.. falling in love with the person is equivalent to giving the person ur heart for him/her to break. small mistakes by that person hurt more than big mistakes by others..

then many small mistakes accumulate to a big big unmovable block. then too big a block,...? break. then more heart ache. haiyah.. full of thorns.. thornny issue..
Blabbered bean @ 22:41 //

Potato flew... to England. Awww... =( Sad. Signal Platoon is breaking up.. split into s3 branch, suman warrior, ndp saigang, messboys then all staying out.. no time together. this is the ache of an ord-ing soldier? hmmm...
Blabbered bean @ 22:33 //

Some Cranky Thoughts..

They say we give and take..
I think 'yeah sure of coz..'

I take the apple from him and gave him a punch.

ROFL!=P
Blabbered bean @ 22:15 //

My precious!!
Blabbered bean @ 21:27 //

OMG!!! Sadako on my bed..
Blabbered bean @ 21:26 //

Watching cartoons on a friday morning feels so good. no need to book in always makes me feel good. i love to laze at home. heh.. making a sumptuous breakfast helps of coz! coffee and all.. gotta get my fat ass to amk centre later to collect my long awaited driving license. wow.. i'm a first time passer! big deal? haha.. big deal to my small self esteem can?
Blabbered bean @ 09:53 //

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Awww... that's so sweet.. i wanna hv those moments too.. i wanna those special momentos again! haha.. life gets real boring without chances to surprise, yet when u do hv the chances u might juz keep procrastinating and putting it off till another day. hmmm.. flaw of human.
Blabbered bean @ 21:59 //

Dad just repaired this camera which my m'sian cousin gave him.. costs 250 bucks just to repair it.. wow.. it's a realli cheem camera.. 7x optical zoom 5 mega pixel.. but it's damn heavy and it looks realli old to me.. check out the price here and stated that it costs around 1.3k!! hmmm.. amazing.. gotta explore it someday..
Blabbered bean @ 20:57 //

Monday, September 26, 2005


Tranquility, serenity, peace & company... A perfect concoction..
Blabbered bean @ 03:06 //

it's so sad.. suddenly i realized my good frens in poly are no more but net frens. sometimes i debate abt it between my left and right brain. is "No time" a valid reason? or is it just an excuse..?

hearing a good fren of mine tok abt him not contacting a childhood-thru-poly good pal of his much anymore makes me all the more wince.. i dun wanna lose my frens liddat.. haiz.. there is no solution.. maybe it's a cruel fact of life..

i hope all my frens can understand that i value each and everyone of u as before.. it's juz that sometimes we realli dun hv that much time for so many friends.. thank you for understanding.. =(
Blabbered bean @ 00:41 //

try this guys.. got it from dav.. type away immediately.. i got 25 points. what's ur score?
Blabbered bean @ 00:13 //

Sunday, September 25, 2005


this is at East Coast Park. the group of us.. i juz found pictures of the riding taken by one of the riders.. andy.. one of the friendliest around.. for more pictures that night, they're here.
Blabbered bean @ 15:47 //

Our Amazing(in my opinion) Race !!
Blabbered bean @ 12:19 //

7 of them in front of me as i free hand and took this photo.. nep was beside me taking video..
Blabbered bean @ 04:25 //

Could resist sneaking this photo before continuing on my arduous journey.. hahaha..
Blabbered bean @ 04:23 //

Must be outta my mind man! haha.. i juz came back from a bike ride. cycling from amk to farrer park mrt to meet some fellow night riders. it was my first time going on night riding. my bike didn't even have any blinker on! haha.. we cycled all the way to east coast park. ride along the coast line along the changi hangers then stopped at changi village for supper! heh.. can't exclude nice food from these kinda late-night outing..

oh ya.. i ride by Singapore Ferry Terminal even.. reminds me of my bmt booking in and going to tekong days.. where dad will fetch me to SFT in record 45 mins speeding on his honda super 4. it was pretty enjoyable.. i like the night breeze.. but dread the upslopes man.. heh.. good work out too.. our group of around 9 of which i'm only know 2 of them realli had our share of fun on the roads.. think i will go with them some time again..
Blabbered bean @ 04:11 //

Saturday, September 24, 2005


Reservoir.. a place for peace, serenity & tranquility..
Blabbered bean @ 11:36 //

Friday, September 23, 2005

Booked out in the afternoon.. surf a bit of net at home. set downloads.. then off i went cycling.. cycled to the atm along ave 5 to withdraw some money. then to esso to pump da bike. then off to amk centre to cut hair. while cycling happen to bum into OngPK and HL. din realli stop to chat for long with them.. enjoying my casual cycling..

after cutting hair, i cycled to upper pierce reservoir. hmmmm... peace... serenity... saw a few couples(young & old) spending the day together in mother nature. hmmm.. so calming to the soul... i wish to one day drive here with a picnic basket. just me n her.. bask in mother nature too.. hmmmmm......

then i met up with jm at amk centre to eat dinner. was cheated of by the auntie who sold me a cutlet for 5 bucks without any side. juz a plain chicken cutlet for 5 bucks. and that's w/o fries, beans or coleslaw lei! hmmmf.. and the spaghetti ain't even realli nice. i'd hv prefered a non sour taste base.

then after dinner jm got 2 tip top currypuffs. we walked home. i got myself engrossed in the toon forum. reading a lot of their articles abt my beloved club while he played battlefield vietnam and rollercoaster tycoon on my lappie.. i fell asleep soon after i rested on my bed to rest my eyes which started to find it hard to read the tiny weeny text on the monitor..
Blabbered bean @ 23:59 //

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Welcome to the completion of another layout.. hee ;) again comments are welcome.. though ammendments are not guaranteed. heh.. gosh it's 0540h already.. how to sleep? later still gotta book in.. gotta go! =)
Blabbered bean @ 05:39 //

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

i'm a walking survey magnet! it's so crazy. i went for a stroll in town and i ended up doing 4 surveys and listening to a prudential agent talk to me about some saving investment plan. well,.. that's what happens to me when i'm walking alone and find it hard to reject surveyers. but then.. at least i got a carrefour keychain outta it. heh..
Blabbered bean @ 19:34 //

kp's gone. go brunei for 40 days. no soccer together for so long. sianz. jm seem to be losing interest. can't seem to find a suitable position to play in. my fitness is getting lousier and lousier. dn n i one-two less n less. haiz. kp's being drawn away by mj and what nots.. think when i leave s'pore the team will probably break apart.

and when i go abroad, will there even be any soccer for my legs? *shakes head*

the chat with jm opened my eyes to what jm thought of kp. "never listens to advice. always wins no matter what. always looking to achieve the most by exerting the least. takes risks. do everything must be worth it." hmmm.. if u dunno him, u prolly won't get the picture that well. u would prolly say he has it in him to be an entrepreneur. well, his father is in the trading biz mah.. maybe he'll follow suit.

then i wonder what is the impression of jm of me.. hmmm... perhaps it's time to reflect and think. whether i am juz as bad. what could i do to improve ? hmmm...
Blabbered bean @ 12:51 //

Monday, September 19, 2005

i juz realized that i'm realli such a coward. quite useless. i haven change have i? =(
Blabbered bean @ 04:54 //

Sunday, September 18, 2005

It's sunday morning! i wanna play soccer!! why does it have to rain? rain stop liao also no one will come n play soccer le.. the ground's wet. i forced my weary eyes open juz because i wanna play. yet a simple sms bearing the "Raining. match cancelled." msg wrecked my plans. i loonged to play soccer. this wkend is jancis' last wkend. he's going brunei for 40 days! haiz. sad.

well,.. have been lazy to update my blog. coz i always believed any entry would be much value-added if there was a picture and i am juz plain lazy to do any.. the euphoria of passing my class license has come n gone.. coz i dun think it is a big deal to pass and keep harping on it. sorry my frens whom i sms and informed abt the news. i'm not show boating. juz excited over it.
i'm also in the midst of playing battle for middle earth. it's based on the lord of the rings trilogy. i like it very much. i've tried battlefield vietnam too. i like it much more than battlefield 2. i simply love the backdrop of a war torn forested area instead of the urban settings in bf2. rollercoaster tycoon i dunno how to play. how how how? either i go figure it out another day or someone gotta teach me.. i wish i know who i lent my football manager disc to. i wanna install on my lappie and start playing..!!

jm came over my place yesterday straight from the sft ferry boat.. we had a chat. yea.. we talked about my overseas studies trip etc. i'll miss playing with the guys. if i were studying locally, every weekend should be no problem but i simply will not be seeing them. haiz. no choice.. hopefully msn can keep our frenship afloat..
Blabbered bean @ 09:28 //

Thursday, September 15, 2005


Notebook Story
Blabbered bean @ 23:17 //

michelle juz came back from home. she went baby sitting.. hmmmm....
Blabbered bean @ 23:01 //

Turn left, turn right part 2 ??
Blabbered bean @ 21:31 //

I wanna be at the reservoir..
Blabbered bean @ 21:30 //

Stressed !
Blabbered bean @ 20:09 //

head feeling very pressurised.. can't focus my concentration or rather maybe i've already over concentrated myself. haiz. why is so late liao..? sky darkening.. i dun wanna go there when there's little light, mosquitoes infested and no one around anywhere..

i feel like cycling myself into nature. where there is water, greenery, lil' people and most importantly peace. some place nice to cool off my mind. perhaps i longed to go to one of the reservoirs again.. grass patch to sit around staring blankly at the water body. thinking of nothing juz letting myself go there..

too many things have been going thru my mind today. i've exhausted my mind. it's so silly.. i keep telling myself not to think abt it but i keep thinking.. stress stress stress.. maybe some music therapy of mine can help me relax.. Shut the windows, shut the door.. speakers out please..
Blabbered bean @ 19:10 //

Rev Rev Rev... arrrgggghhhhh.... this is not a race!!!!! 2nd last revision and yet still keep reving.. cannot feel the clutch well.. damn.. a lack of confidence again.. my forte's being mr gan jiong during one on one test. i will curb this problem. i will do it. i juz will. dun ask me how. i'll just show them what i can do. relax... feeling down.. forget abt the above rants, guys! mr woo n nep gives me the extra stress sia.. it's funny how some ppl hv more confidence in me passing than myself sia.. perhaps they're taking it for granted...
Blabbered bean @ 12:45 //

juz having some fun..
Blabbered bean @ 09:41 //

Tuesday, September 13, 2005


another jigsaw.. eh? different rite?
Blabbered bean @ 21:48 //

Dainty cat.. haha.. i stand it sit on bench.. what a life..
Blabbered bean @ 21:47 //

Feeling lazy to blog.. argh. today i'm super forgetful. morning forgot to bring my camp pass when i book in. then forget to bring my wallet out when i left home for driving lessons in the evening. haiz. super blur. cannot tahan. not my day not my day.

today on bus home saw these 2 ah lian. haha. realli veri ah lian loh.. v long time nv see such ppl liao.. one highlight a purple streak. one highlight a bright yellow streak. then sit on the bus seat left leg bend up and put on the seat she sat. the right leg stretch to the opposite seat n put there. and it's not like it's a very vacant bus. it was pretty packed in my opinion. so crude. urks.


Blabbered bean @ 20:29 //

Monday, September 12, 2005


Jigsaw Puzzle of trip to Holland Village Coffee Bean..
Blabbered bean @ 14:37 //

A nice moment to remember...?
Blabbered bean @ 12:46 //

Eat-Till-You-Drop Brazillian Meat buffet...!! Salad Bar available for a touch of healthy green though...
Blabbered bean @ 12:08 //

So many things to settle.. hmmmm... lotsa questions marks floating around on my mind. School starts in February! but i still haven paid RMIT the first semester sch fees yet. my excuse is no time no time.. but then i think i gotta dig out some time..

so far, i've gotten the acceptance letter from Royal Melbourne Institute of Technology(RMIT), Edith Cowan University(ECU), Griffith University, Queensland University of Technology(QUT) and a letter from Monash University requesting for my portfolio of about 10-15 slides of my artwork. should i go prepare one? i would reckon it should be pretty easy if i wanna do one out but then... should i? when my mind's already set on RMIT? at the same time i'm curious whether they'll accept me.

how to settle accomodation thingy abroad? where will i live? who will i live with? when should i go over and accustome myself to the surroundings there? what stuff should i bring over? how much clothing should i bring over? what will happen to my handphone? render it redundant? or can i get a sim card over there using the same phone to use? can i bring a bicycle over? will it be costly? what files should i transfer into my lappie to bring over to aussie?

Questions ppl like to ask me about my impending overseas studies...why do ppl keep asking me these qns?

"so u're realli going abroad to study ah?"
do i not sound convincing? do i project that kinda say-for-the-sake-of-saying impression? i'm concerned that i dun exude and give the impression of i-mean-what-i-say.

"So.. who are you going with?"
why do ppl keep asking me who am i going with? is it a very unprepared and rashed decision to go alone? do i project the i-need-company-on-my-overseas-studies kinda image? or did forgotten to consider some facts which u could enlighten? i'm just curious and not qn-ing or challenging ur qn.. don't mean to be rude here in short..

"will you be able to earn back what u spent abroad? is studying for a degree worthwhile?"
firstly, i consider studying multimedia my interest. i did not study for the degree with making back more money in mind. that doesn't mean i dun intend to get my returns but rather din hv that as a first priority. i realli wanna upgrade myself on the multimedia side especially since i didn't study a lot about it in poly. shouldn't hv studied Engineering Informatics should hv taken Multimedia Infocomm Tech instead.

"RMIT can do distance-learning what.. why would u wanna spend so much to go overseas and study?"
coz.. i wanna fulfill a small dream of mine of experiencing living in a different country for a while. to build up my independance more. to be able to fend for myself. and oso to study multimedia and learn more about it.

C'Mon man! "After Army what's worse?!"
Blabbered bean @ 09:38 //

Giddy giddy giddy.. everytime play battlefield II sure giddy till wanna vomit kinda sick one. recently installed a few games onto my lappie and was playing them. find that lappie becomes pretty hot. hope it don't gimme problems next time. wonder if can on over night.. hmmm...

play until giddy le no mood and inspiration to do the pix of the big buffet at the restaurant. pix hopefully will be up tomolo.. i'm on off tomolo. sorry for lack of updates this wkend. due to army half marathon made me sleep my sunday away.. then Battlefield for wrecking my mood to blog or photo-blog.
Blabbered bean @ 00:22 //

Been playing this game this 2 days. i'm hopeless with these kinda CS styled games. makes me wanna puke so much. i'm pretty poor with orientation i guess.. gets giddy and feels so sick after playing for a while.. But it can be pretty fun being the rambo in there.. if only i dun get giddy playing i'll definitely love it.. haiz. if only... *head spinning and pukes...
Blabbered bean @ 00:11 //

Sunday, September 11, 2005


Nice Brazillian restaurant..
Blabbered bean @ 20:14 //

Saturday, September 10, 2005


The games to pass my time away in the mess...
Blabbered bean @ 11:49 //

NEP's bed became my personal parking lot !!
Blabbered bean @ 11:48 //

Booked out last night around 2210h. reached home around 2235h. cycled home from camp. whoa! it sure was tiring when cycling up the slopes.. though they may look gentle.. i reckon it's worse to face long gentle slopes than short steep slopes. but the ride home was like pretty short. i didn't expect to reach home in such a short time. hmmm.. i surprised myself there..
fell asleep while watching a movie then woke up in the following morning early to complete the show. then went in slumber again. must be the fatigue from playing all those xbox games in the mess. i had spent the whole 2 days at the mess playing Top Spin(a tennis game) and Winning Eleven 8(soccer game). wow! it's 1115h already.. kekeke.. i'll go brush up first.. blog later.. ciaoz guys!
Blabbered bean @ 11:17 //

Friday, September 09, 2005

Being alone can be quite a rare moment in a busy country like Singapore. Being alone gives the time and freedom for the brain to think. without any external influence disrupting its flow of thought. Depending on how you see things, it can be quite beneficial to one's personal development.

One that grew up being left alone often would grow to adapt. Thus, gaining independence. Whenever they faced problems, their minds will naturally concentrate and try their best to solve the problem at hand.

On the other hand, a child that grew up with lotsa attention from other influence(ie. parents), it would not come as naturally to try and solve the problem using their own means. "Mum! Help.. I can't seem to {action} this." Instead they seek help first before really trying hard on their part.

Thus my point that being alone can be lonely. but perhaps we should use it to do some reflection and self-development. =)
Blabbered bean @ 22:57 //

Some reflections/thoughts as i do mess duty alone on thursday night:

Why do people mellow with age? Why is it that when younger, they would be so easily agitated. so impatient. so shoot-your-mouth-off. yet when they grow older, somehow they change. seeming to see things in different light. from different angles. and being calmer as they approach any problem that props up. How come the change is so drastic and contrasting? it's such a BIG change. I guess most people will say it's exprience. but maybe until i do age myself then will i truly understand this thought. Hmmmm.......

*ps: thoughts written using a pencil on a piece of paper then transferred to web ink when i booked out and reached home.
Blabbered bean @ 22:50 //

Thursday, September 08, 2005


Been busy installing the programs i want in my lappie...
Blabbered bean @ 02:36 //

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

i rode bso's bike to the mess to and fro for the past 2 days. it was a breeze literally as i returned the mess key to the ops room at night too.. today i went back bunk specially so that i could run with the guys. a 7-km run. yeah.. feeling fat FAT FAT ! =( haha.. think that'll satisfy my guility struck conscience for the time being.. i hope to maintain running with guys on a regular basis... *hmmm... someone hypnotize me to like running lei..*
Blabbered bean @ 20:31 //

YoZ! hi guys.. i'm home again.. finally.. after 3 days spent watching tv, surfing, playing the occasion gameboy of 'ok hao' and serving the big-as-they-think-they-are warrant officers. not that all of them are as bad as i described though. some are actually pretty gentlemen lah.. But i always feel commissioned officers are much more gentlemen than warrant officers..


Alrite, back to the fun stuff.. llewell brought his dreamcast into camp. they play it in bunk 3. all the games are the arcade styled ones and they were pretty fun actually only not up to date n the graphics can't be compared to with the xbox or ps2.


i tried out the fishing game. llewell even brought in a fishing rod controller! i caught lotsa bass. lotsa heavy big BIG BIG ones... hee.. if only fishing was that simple, then all the fishing spots would be 'botak' liao..

there was this special stage of the fishing game llewell told us about that had this realli realli monstrously huge fish inside and the guys were adamant to find and catch it. i tried many times but ended luring big fishes but not that moster fish. and so it happened that i kept hooking onto and then releasing this 7616g fish. i let it go more than 5 times. and the guys jokingly advised me to bet 4D on this number. i didn't of coz. i hope it din open. but then.. i wouldn't noe.. coz i'm sure i won't check.. i'm not going back to the 4d days...


then i played some street fighter mixed game with the guys. i sucked. big time. but then it didn't matter. we had fun. hee ;) sometimes i find i laugh at how badly i sucked at those fighting games.. kekeke.. i find that sometimes it's good to not wanna be so competitive in an already pretty stressful world.. =)
Blabbered bean @ 19:45 //

Monday, September 05, 2005


Chicken Shreds Porridge
Blabbered bean @ 00:06 //

NYDC with Dare.
Blabbered bean @ 00:06 //

Sunday, September 04, 2005



Blabbered bean @ 22:47 //

Laptop is coming.. it's coming.. can't wait to get my hands on it.. kekekeke... camera will have to wait till i go find myself a job. hmmm.. feel like working in the cafetaria line. working in a NYDC etc kinda place. anyone got lobang to intro me? i'll be diligent, yeah?

currently still thinking of whether to get a small, sleek 3x optical zoom camera or a bigger bulkier 6x optical zoom camera. hmmmmm... also thinking how to settle my accomodation probs. the fees for rmit need to be submitted soon too.. dun ferget mel..

side track a bit i think kp's punting again. hmmm.. he seem to be keeping it from us. i must resist. i shouldn't go back to punting, right? hmmm... no 4D no toto no big sweep no punting. i should think i've learnt my lesson.. i wish him well..
Blabbered bean @ 18:28 //

These last four days has been pretty hectic in my life thus the lack of updates.. oni show some pix etc.. went to suntec city on thurs, fri n again on sat. Comex loh.. got to source hard for laptop mahz. actually today i also intend to go down. but jm and kp coming to my house after the heavy rainfall curtailed my soccer session probably persuaded me not to go again. (not that i wanna.. kekeke)

Comex is squeezy and ppl keep chaffing flyers into my hands. urks. if i want i will ask from u.. dun push into my arms.. so irritating. the jostling among the crowd is horrendous too.. which reminds of my the xiaxue entry abt being molested. haha.. we're fortunate to be guys n need not worry about that though.. haha..



ytd went for lunch at carl's jr. with a fren.. chit chat abt lotsa stuff which set mind ticking.. hmmmm... think abt it another time. now not the right time in my opinion. maybe when i come back from studies.. tim would hv been a better person to talk to on these matters i guess..

then took a bus ride to esplanade and walked to suntec while taking some scenic photos..


met up with potato and 'ok hao'. bought tix for the longest yard for 4 of us.'ok hao', potato, tim & me. the longest yard. then while waiting for tim n potato to arrive, me n 'ok hao' went to nydc n had cheesecakes! kekeke.. last min. craving satisfied.. heh! sat there n chat till 2345h. show starts midnight. quite a good show in my opinion. hilarious comedy as 'ok hao' call it. i guess tim was proven wrong.. he din had a good impression of the show initially from viewing of the trailer.

potato drove us to outram. where we ate porridge from a stall call 'chang cheng' directly translates into great wall of china. i had 'ji si zhou' (chicken shreds porridge) and i realli like it.. the warmth in the stomach made me sleepy though.. hell.. it's already 3+am. of coz tired lah.. slept around 4+.

today.. soccer at 10am. awoke very early. 0800h wake up liao. oni sleep 3+ hours. 'ok hao' joined me, jm, kp and darren today. we finally have a team of 5 again. he cycled to ave 10 and i checked out his bike. v light. v pro. heh.. not bad. v good suspension but v high seat. haha.. dunno why he like it so high..

played ps2 while kp kept using my pc to dl stuff. install game n stuff.. urks. i dun realli like that. i like my pc with little programs. then it boots faster.. but how? bo bian lan lan loh.. suan le.. what r frens for? cannot be so 'niao'..
Blabbered bean @ 17:58 //